For the past few weeks I have thought Thursday was Friday. So on Friday I am in a bad mood when I should be in a good mood. Make sense?
Today is beautiful outside, but I feel down. Maybe it's because C was gone last night and even though I thought I would enjoy having the remote and not watching hockey...I missed him and I went to sleep way later than usual so I think that is part of me feeling down today. I am tired!
I also didn't have any coffee this morning....so I finally drank a diet coke and hopefully that picks me up for the afternoon!
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Day 2
I remembered to come back! 2 things I am thinking about today- I am very excited for this summer and all the fun things we get to plan with the babe. It is her first summer, her first 4th of July (which I am very excited about b/c we are going out of town with friends and it will be so fun!), her first trip to Penticton. She has 4 cute swimsuits and we start waterbabies on the 19th! I am just really looking forward to all these things with her :)
The second thing I am thinking about: we (me and the babe) met some girlfriends at a place yesterday after work and had a glass of wine (not AM of course). The babe did sooo well sitting in her highchair and just smiling and enjoying herself, she even let Carrie hold her! :) Anyway, my thoughts on this nice afternoon, drinking a good glass of wine, the sun outside and good friends inside- it made me happy that we are growing up and these are small things that are fun for us to do. It used to be so difficult to plan a small get together like that, but as I grow up, especially with the baby, it is nice to be able to have a monthly (hopefully we keep it up) plan to see each other casually when we can. It just cheered me up yesterday.
Okay, a third thought that makes me happy but anxious I suppose....I told Carrie that I had told the husband that I want to have another baby. I don't know what it is, I think because at this time last year I was pregnant and the weather and everything just brings back those feelings of happiness and anxiously awaiting the unknown (however it would not be unknown the next time!). And with Jenny being pregnant, she is going through the same motions exactly a year later, with her due date so close to mine of last year. So I think of all those thoughts that were going through my head last year and it being really exciting. I sometimes think AM is the only baby I ever want or need, but then I have issues with the thought of an only child (sorry to those that are, but I think she needs a sibling). And of course they are lots of work, but they give oh so much joy at the same time. So, I think I am ready. Not of course right this second...but my mind is made up, I am going to have a second baby. Now....to just talk C into it :) HAHA
I was about to post this, but saved a draft first. I then was on MSNBC and found a story that made me soooo sad. A vegan couple tried to feed their baby in that lifestyle and they killed their 6 week old. He (I think) was born at home and they only fed him soy milk and apple juice...he only weighed 3 1/2 pounds and he died from malnutrition. They got sentenced to life in prison. I am happy about that. Stupid parents. I remember having problems breast feeding AM when she was born and I was scared everyday I was starving her, we had to get her weighed at the dr a bunch of times and I gave her formula in the process b/c I was so worried I wasn't giving her enough. How can parents watch their newborn waste away and just go on with applejuice???? It just blows my mind. That story really made me mad, and so sad.
The second thing I am thinking about: we (me and the babe) met some girlfriends at a place yesterday after work and had a glass of wine (not AM of course). The babe did sooo well sitting in her highchair and just smiling and enjoying herself, she even let Carrie hold her! :) Anyway, my thoughts on this nice afternoon, drinking a good glass of wine, the sun outside and good friends inside- it made me happy that we are growing up and these are small things that are fun for us to do. It used to be so difficult to plan a small get together like that, but as I grow up, especially with the baby, it is nice to be able to have a monthly (hopefully we keep it up) plan to see each other casually when we can. It just cheered me up yesterday.
Okay, a third thought that makes me happy but anxious I suppose....I told Carrie that I had told the husband that I want to have another baby. I don't know what it is, I think because at this time last year I was pregnant and the weather and everything just brings back those feelings of happiness and anxiously awaiting the unknown (however it would not be unknown the next time!). And with Jenny being pregnant, she is going through the same motions exactly a year later, with her due date so close to mine of last year. So I think of all those thoughts that were going through my head last year and it being really exciting. I sometimes think AM is the only baby I ever want or need, but then I have issues with the thought of an only child (sorry to those that are, but I think she needs a sibling). And of course they are lots of work, but they give oh so much joy at the same time. So, I think I am ready. Not of course right this second...but my mind is made up, I am going to have a second baby. Now....to just talk C into it :) HAHA
I was about to post this, but saved a draft first. I then was on MSNBC and found a story that made me soooo sad. A vegan couple tried to feed their baby in that lifestyle and they killed their 6 week old. He (I think) was born at home and they only fed him soy milk and apple juice...he only weighed 3 1/2 pounds and he died from malnutrition. They got sentenced to life in prison. I am happy about that. Stupid parents. I remember having problems breast feeding AM when she was born and I was scared everyday I was starving her, we had to get her weighed at the dr a bunch of times and I gave her formula in the process b/c I was so worried I wasn't giving her enough. How can parents watch their newborn waste away and just go on with applejuice???? It just blows my mind. That story really made me mad, and so sad.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
My first day
This is my first day blogging. Which I might say I do not so much like the word blog, however I have found myself really enjoying the reading of our friend Mandy's blog. Funny thing is...I don't think she even knows I read it, I don't ever post comments. But now that I am back to work (1 month now), it is a nice thing to read in the afternoon. I feel like I know all about what's going on and it is so cute to see pictures of her little girls and watch them grow up.
So, yes, back to work. I am having thoughts everyday about being with the babe. I miss her lots and worry about daycare and stress about not being there and wish we could win the lottery and I could have her with me all the time. But then I also think of how she's getting to socialize and play, which she loves. And I think it's good for her too. My big wish would be to work part time, but mom can't retire to watch her yet, so full time it is. For those of you who have never paid for daycare in Seattle/Eastside...not so cheap, and part time work with part time daycare is impossible.
Anyway, I think this blog thing will be fun...hopefully I keep up with it! And I think I'll send it to Mandy so she can read about our family without me even knowing :)
So, yes, back to work. I am having thoughts everyday about being with the babe. I miss her lots and worry about daycare and stress about not being there and wish we could win the lottery and I could have her with me all the time. But then I also think of how she's getting to socialize and play, which she loves. And I think it's good for her too. My big wish would be to work part time, but mom can't retire to watch her yet, so full time it is. For those of you who have never paid for daycare in Seattle/Eastside...not so cheap, and part time work with part time daycare is impossible.
Anyway, I think this blog thing will be fun...hopefully I keep up with it! And I think I'll send it to Mandy so she can read about our family without me even knowing :)
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