better

Okay so I'm feeling better for the time being. I got my stint out-for those who don't know what that is- gross. It's a flexible curlycue thing that goes from your kidney and through the tube to your bladder. Sooo uncomfortable-painful-annoying. So I got the one out..I will not go into details about them taking it out. Yuck. I will be going in for another kidney stone laser zapping (not proper medical terms) on Thurs. And unfortunately another stint-which I will in turn have to go back in for removal. Mind you, removal is just in the office while you are awake, laying there. Very unlike when you are under antisthesia to get it in-and laser zapping. Anyway, the nice weather for a couple days has made me happier. I even enjoyed the thunder storm we just had.
I have however had crazy dreams which turn to thoughts all day of the past. Do you ever think of exes or past crushes, flames from high school or college? Wow, my dreams have been crazy. I of course do not divulge this info to my husband-don't think he'd enjoy or be interested. Anyway, it's just kind of crazy. Then today C and I take the kids to the beach by his grandparents, which they have always called 'The Cove', and we've been together for over 8 yrs, and for some reason I have never gone to this specific area. Today I wander from the regular spot where you enter and realize it's where I went to a bonfire with my HS bf the night after graduation. It brings back memories. So weird, especially after all these dreams or whatever.
Another thing- I was looking at an old friend's facebook profile and it makes me mad/sad/jealous..not sure. I miss her, I wonder how life just goes on and you are replacable..but I wouldn't trade my kids for anything in the world! And who knows where life will take you, but I am happy with mine. I guess I just wonder how things change so fast. And life takes you in different directions. I suppose you just miss somethings and others miss out on different things.
TC is almost one. I cannot believe it! It's so fun seeing how different he is than AM. He is his own little manperson. So cute, fun, funny and adorable. I love him to death-such a doll!
And AM, even through some of the Terrible twos..and I mean terrible! She can still have her moments of being the sweetest little girl you've ever met. Gosh I just want to eat her up somedays. Soooo cute! So, anyway, I can now blog from my blackberry (which I love btw), hopefully I won't be so negligent now! If I am, remind me I can do it instead of watching Kipper..oh wait, I like Kipper :)

Discouraged

I feel discouraged. I am tired, exhausted. The weather I'm sure has a lot to do with it. I only want to put sweats on. The kids wear me out. I feel like I need a nap. It makes for long days and nights when C is working from 1 or 2pm until 2am. I wonder if my kidneys pick up on this and decide to tear me down more. I spent a few days in the hospital a week ago. I am going back in next week for more kidney procedure crap. I don't have time to work out, we eat crap for food all the time because C is hardly ever here and we have to keep our house somewhat clean because it's on the market- which brings me to more discouragement- it hasn't sold yet. That stresses C out and then I get stressed, we wonder what's wrong as all we've gotten are great comments by all the agents and people through. Oh well....life goes on. I just wish I could have a vacation along the way.

missing post!

So I blogged very intoxicated from Autumn's phone in Yakima....blogging on a blackberry when you can hardly see in a dark garage...not smart. Not saving the post...could be smart! haha No, I know it was just all sappy 'I love my girlfriends' stuff. But we did have a good time. However, I realized it was like open to close, 10 years later. Which in turn gives you an idea of why I spent the later part of the night puking in my hotel sink (for those of you who know about C's history with this..it was finally payback for my husband- he really loved that). And again, pulling over 5 miles from Kelly's house on the freeway for another round of that on our way back to Seattle in the morning. I finally felt like half a human being around 1:30 yesterday. So, obviously good times were had by all! Thank you to Kelly and Trav for a wonderful time! And to all my girlfriends for all the sappy I love you talk, there's nothing like it! XOXO

Funny

So, I didn't get on here tonight to blog. I thought about it and decided I would rather go to bed. However there was nothing on tv when I turned it off upstairs and thought I would check some things out online before I turned the computer off. As I read T's blog and caught up with Mandy's, for some reason whenever I read hers I feel motivated to talk for at least a minute :) So, thanks Mandy for motivating this unmotivated blogger.

I don't know what it is lately, I just don't feel I have much to talk about or I just don't use the time I have to get on here. But sometimes it's good for me, lets me talk or vent to nobody in particular!

Our house is officially going on the market on Wednesday! C is nervous. I told him I will only be nervous if it sells and we haven't found a place yet :) We have found one, but I won't get into details because it's kind of a wait and see thing right now. I'll let you know if this changes!

We are all finally getting over all the sicknesses. Last time I wrote I said we had been through 3 weeks of sickness, and we were getting another go around. Well, I got over that one fairly quickly. Unfortunately, then TC got a stomach bug...puking, and the other end too...and then I got a sinus infection and bronchitis....Now, once again I can say it is gone...kind of. The dr wouldn't give me any medicine, so it has been nights of a horrible stuffy nose and mornings of yucky coughing. I have finally stopped taking my aleve cold and sinus now and no more afrin. Thank goodness, I hate that stuff! Let's keep our fingers crossed it is all gone for good now!

The weather is throwing me for a loop. It was sooo cold last week, snow, pouring rain, I was ready to pack up and move. Now it's like 70...WEIRD. But I have seen a glimpse of my daughter's future...we have to be outside at all times. It has been 2 days of fits to enter the house. Which is great for her to want to be outside, but I can't just leave a 2 yr old outside by herself all day! So this evening, the kids were playing with toys in the yard and mommy sat outside with a glass of wine and the paper...it was nice. Then it was World War III to come in and take a shower...that was not nice.

Okay, enough for me today. I am tired. Tomorrow is a big day of cleaning, cleaning, cleaning!

Wish us luck on the house selling and our house hunting!

Unmotivated blogger

So I have been, it's terrible. It started I was blogging in my head, then I forgot that I wasn't actually ever blogging anymore and then I just got unmotivated and I swear half the time I want to blog it's to complain or vent or whatever. Who wants to read that? And when I actually get a chance to get on the computer, I do one or two things I need to before 1-the kids wake up 2-the kids (TC) cry 3-the kids (AM) say mamamamamamamamamamama, turn the puter off. So, here I am, finally. I have been on the computer long enough to do the couple things I needed and AM and TC are fully entertaining (minus a few mamas so far..) themselves with toys and books on the floor next to me. I thought I would blog.

Life has been crazy lately. C has been working nights and we have been trying to adjust to this new schedule. It has AM climbing in bed with us a lot, her light needing to stay on, me needing to stay with her until she falls asleep in her bed. We have been through 3 weeks of sickness, and we are having a flare up of runny noses and unfortunately it has finally caught up with me and I have a very sore throat and a bad headache today. But as far as life goes, we must still clean, do laundry, grocery shop, entertain and wake up when little ones do not want to sleep.

I have been working out on the elliptical still, but my results have decreased. I have lost a total of 9.5 pounds, but that leaves me behind schedule by a half pound I think. I should bust @$$ and stop eating, but once again, I am feeling unmotivated. I have come to the realization that I desperately need a tummy tuck, but $8000 isn't in my budget! It wouldn't cure my problems, but it would help my post (2) pregnancy (csection) stomach, lose however much weight they could take, and make me probably feel 100 times better about myself! I'll have to keep dreaming for now....

There are some days I get mad at my husband, but I am so happy I have him and he is my best friend in the whole world. God I love him. He is the only one that I do not feel judged by nor do I feel that...well I don't know how to put it. I guess he just understands what is important to me, our family, our kids, etc.

We've been trying to get our house all touched up to put on the market soon. It's actually coming along nicely. We have some little things left, but our list is getting items crossed off. We have been looking at houses online and finding a few here and there. We've gone to look at a couple but nothing really meeting our fancy yet. We've looked north, we've looked south. We're keeping open minds about a location.

AM was accepted into Our Lady of Guadalupe preschool for fall, which we are very excited about. We'll have to figure out what to do if we move, maybe I'll make the drive a couple days a week...? It's a great school and we think we'll all like it.

My little man is getting big, 9 months old, almost crawling. I cannot believe before I know it, he will be 1! Time sure flies.

Oh, and San Francisco was so fun for C and I! We had a great trip!

Hope all is well with you- til next time!

too many to remember

I have been blogging in my head. I have lost track of all my thoughts I have wanted to talk about because once I blog in my head, it's gone and nowhere is it typed and I forget. Weird...must be like confession or something :)

We got our elliptical. Love it. Been working out everyday, not super long, but it gets better everyday. I feel better about myself because I haven't done this since back before I was married with children. I am hoping by summer there will be some kind of noticeable difference. I just need to keep at it. I've lost 6 pounds, so it's a start at least.

I am looking forward to a busy month. We have lots of fun things planned and the fact that the sun is out sometimes and the days are brighter longer makes me happy!

As for the picture, it's just been awhile and it shows that my little man is growing up..sitting up in the bathtub, no infant tub, with his big sissy. So cute. I love my two babies!

Ugh and Yeah

UGH
I am going to the dentist today. I have to get another filling. I don't know if you remember my anxiety about all the fillings I had a year and a half ago, but I hate those big needles in my mouth. Crappy.
YEAH
Good news, C and I have planned a whirlwind 24 hr getaway! It started this weekend when I got an email about Alaska Airlines miles reservation sale for trips to some places in Cal by March. So I looked into it and we still have lots of miles and it was very few miles to go down there during this time. We started talking about it a day or so later and we didn't think it'd be fun to take the kids to San Francisco, or really anywhere for that matter because it would be too much energy to get us all down there and then what? And we didn't want to be gone from them for the whole weekend, TC is still kind of little for that and we didn't want to have C take any time off work. So, we decided we are going to leave very early Saturday morning and come back early Sunday morning. Then my mom will only have to stay with them for technically one whole day and then sleep at our house for the night and we'll be back early Sunday. So, off we go! The weekend it worked best for was Feb 28th, so I am really looking forward to that quick escape! C said it will be a nice trip since we didn't get to celebrate my 30th bday last year and it will be just after my 31st. We are excited to shop a little, go out to a nice dinner, stay in a nice hotel, and just a quick 2 hr flight...with no kids! It's a perfect trip :)