Pessimistic and amazed

I am feeling pessimistic these days about certain things. Not sure why, but I won't get into it all. Just wanted to note that I was.
I am otherwise completely amazed by my daughter. Obviously every parent is in awe over their kids, but it still amazes me. I watch her, all the time. She is so smart and does funny things and you wonder where it came from. How does she know to do that, or why she does something. It just makes me smile. All her little ways and how she likes things a particular way. It all makes me happy.
I think the good thing about how much she amazes me, it helps the pessimism about other things in life not matter so much anymore.

Where's the snow?

Everywhere but here. It's so sad! I wake up and watch the news and everyone has snow, schools are closed everywhere...and I couldn't tell you any of that by looking out my window...completely not white. Cory said when he went outside there was a light dusting, I think it was just frost. But I luck out, don't have to work until later for other reasons and when I do drive here it starts snowing. I think my luck is changing...nope, it stopped. The most white I saw was when I left my house it hailed and the street was covered in ice balls. Yeaaah. This sucks, it makes me wish we still lived up in that good old convergence zone! It also brings back memories of wishing and hoping for snow days, but when you live on the beach-no such luck. Until high school-private schools close for the smallest drop of snow, and no make up days?! Worth the tuition right there :) haha just kidding mom!
But hopefully little AM and TC will be as lucky :)
The weekend was fun, baby shower and birthday dinner. Lots of fun for AM to play with cousins on both sides-she wore her self out! We also shortened her nap and have been putting her to bed a little later (if she can make it), but whatever it is, she's not crying as much/waking up at night. Much better! Wish I could say the same though...stupid prego bladder. I'm tired!

Quick admission

I like reading kids book. Not all of them, and definitely not 100 million times, but I like them with their cute animals and cute stories! Enjoy one :)

Sooo Tired

What a long couple of days. AM has been having nightmares or something for the past week and a half. They have started to lessen, but if she's not screaming bloody murder we let her cry it out...otherwise we end up holding her for 2 hours because she will not let you put her back to bed. So, on to these past couple days...yesterday she slept for a little bit in the car. So when it came to nap time I thought I'd make it later and shorter. It was made into nothing, by her. I was scared she would then be grumpy but she was fine (thank goodness). She went to bed last night fine. Cory on the other hand wakes me up after I had been sound asleep for 2 hours and acts like it's just normal for me to get up and answer his questions. I was so asleep before...I wanted to cry. When you are sleeping good while pregnant, you enjoy it. After that I couldn't get comfortable, I couldn't sleep. Irritating. Then at 5 when C is getting up to take a shower, AM is having one of her crying spells...well with C up, the shower going, lights going on, the dogs up..there is no getting her back to sleep. So we cuddle on the couch for a little. Mind you I get up at 5:30 everyday, but from then til 7 I get to relax, watch the news, drink my one cup of coffee, and shower. Now AM is tired, a little bit fussy. I am tired after one day w/no nap and one early morning (actually a few bit not all 5am early). And today will be one day with the kids on different schedules, maybe a little later night so she'll sleep all night, and a very sleepy momma.
So glad I have tomorrow off! Just some errands, Target..I love that place. Sat a baby shower for my sis-in-law and Sun a bday dinner for mom. And I am hoping my husband will be somewhat sweet this weekend and not talk to me in the morning until at least 6:30!
Hope you all have a great weekend!
And on a side note, today is 7 years from Cory's and my first date!

What a day

I started out in such a wonderful mood this morning, it was gorgeous, I was excited that it was Tues and I have tomorrow off. I was excited that we had chosen a name, I was happy AM said cheese and took a cute pic to email my mom for her birthday.. And then, the smallest thing irritates me and then, it's all down hill. He cries nonstop for 30 minutes when she leaves him (part of the time she was still in the house and she had to sneak out so he didn't get more upset). Then I find out my email hasn't been coming in. Then I spend 20 minutes on the phone w/tech support while AM throws a screaming fit on the floor. Oh and then she does it again, and again. Then he wakes up and continues to cry at everything. And now....I partly want to just quit and say the stress isn't good for me or the baby, and my husband hates that I feel I have to take care of this kid. But I have a little over one month left, I will finish, unless he continues to cry constantly everyday b/c I cannot deal. Right now he's crying again for no reason, just crawling and crying.

But Trenton is moving around in my belly. My day is half over. Naps are soon. I have tomorrow off. My email is fixed. AM is smart and sweet. I have 2 fun family things to look forward to this weekend. And today is my mom's birthday! Happy Bday mom!

If I wasn't pregnant I'd make my lemons into...a glass of wine :) I'll have to settle for ice cream! Have a good afternoon!

Monday once again

Does Monday make everything seem not as great? Like this weather, it's absolutely freezing, but it's beautiful! It's not raining at all, but I am not enjoying it. I feel like I should be outside in the sun, but when I go out I feel like my fingers are going to fall off. And poor AM, I bundle her up because her teeth chatter when it's 61 in our house. Anyway, I just feel like if it's going to be this cold, I'd like some snow with it. Maybe because I need a snow day. It's also a blah Monday because the family I nanny for decided it was a good idea to have me come watch the baby even though they flew in this morning from a trip and she's not going to work...oh excuse me she's been on the computer upstairs. But she also fed the baby and tried to put him down b/c he's screaming bloody murder if she walks away from him. Which will go great when he does wake up and she has to come downstairs to pee or do anything else. So AM and I have played, ate lunch, and read books all while he sleeps and she works. Not really a huge deal but she knows C has today off and I could be enjoying a long weekend with my husband and daughter at home instead of wasting my time sitting on her couch playing with my own child. I put AM down for a little bit of an earlier nap with the wishful thinking that we will be going home early. I guess I am somewhat annoyed too that he is just sleeping through the middle of the day and I will be missing GH instead of them both having their afternoon nap at the same time later :) HaHa!
Anyway, Cory and I spent a majority of our weekend discussing baby names. I think we have a final one, but we reserve the right for changes when he's born and could possibly decide to change our minds :) Positive feedback only, I don't want any "ughs" thank you!
Trenton Charles Fowler

It's a Boy!

So it was a surprise to my ears and to my eyes! It's really a boy! I guess since Cory was so adament it was a girl and since everyone else is having a boy, I just thoguht we'd have a girl. And I would've been just as happy with another girl..probably a little less scared, but I am so excited to have one of each. My mom and I hit Target after the ultrasound...don't ever let mom and grandma loose in Target after that. I hadn't bought this baby anything yet (big difference from the 1st) and all of a sudden...look at all these cute baby things! And in blue! Such a different world! Now, for a name..we had 2 boy names that we liked...I had already gone through the whole boy section of the baby book and we never added any to the 2. So C said we have to go through it again b/c we have a purpose now. We started last night and we added one, which we already decided against. Boy names are hard, wish us luck!
I did start my maternity yoga last night and I loved it. I can't wait to continue! Not only did it feel good, it was relaxing, and it was a quiet hour and a half...just for me! Love it! Have a great weekend!

Blog

So I find myself thinking is my blog super boring? Does it really matter though, there's only a few of you that read it and you all know me :) I know 99 percent of it is about AM, but really....not much else in my life to talk about, I guess at least not that many things that give me as much joy. Such a mom thing to say, but you'll get it if you are a mom or if you are ever a mom in the future. So back to my blog, I'm sure it's boring, but not much else to talk about. I find even with C, mostly we talk about AM, the dogs or the remodel or work, well, his work (ok lots of stuff but it revolves around AM, everything does). My work is AM, and the little guy. Who, on a side note, is fun when he's happy (like right now, him & AM are having lots of fun playing), but he will cry at the drop of a dime. Lately I think he doesn't like AM bullying him, which I scold AM of course (I cannot believe I said scold, am I 90?), but I also try to calm him down. And I explain to him he's not going to get very far if he cries over every girl that bullies him...nor will he ever get married :) So more things to talk about...what's new with me? I am getting my hair cut tonight and I am bored and need something new, we'll see what Debbie and I come up with. Tomorrow I get to find out what the baby is! Cannot wait! Also I am starting maternity yoga with Cass and hopefully I don't break! I get really sore and lots of pains, but hopefully it helps with that.
Okay back to AM, I think she is borderline ocd, which I think is funny because I think I am too. Cory did not find this funny...oops. Guess I shouldn't throw around my medical or psychological theories...didn't know he was so sensitive. But he also doesn't like me giving AM ketchup to dip things in...what can I do though? She is my daughter and that means part Ross and we love our condiments! And C doesn't have a problem when it's ranch or whatever, just ketchup...maybe he thinks it's an addiction :) Anyway, enough randomness for today. I'll blog Thurs with news of the baby hopefully!

Vacations

It should be a given that if you spend money to go on vacation, you automatically get a spa trip or something in your hometown for your return. We are exhausted! Traveling with a toddler....hmm....Cory must have asked me 10 times, whose idea was this? (his by the way) But I think all in all it went very well, we all had fun, and AM did great. The plane ride home was a little trying, but we spent way tooooo much time at the airport since our flight kept getting delayed and by the time we got on the plane, AM was very tired and not having it. She finally fell asleep in my arms with 30 minutes left. SeaWorld was awesome, the weather all weekend was beautiful, the beach was so nice, and we took AM to a great park which was lots of fun. The one complaint I have about San Diego, there are not many kid friendly places to find to eat at. Besides fast food, most places were bars. Places that considered themselves "family friendly", (and one that even advertised themselves as that), did not have kids menus at all. We got the same story from all of them, "we have chicken strips and fries or we can make a plain cheese quesadilla". So after a weekend full of cheese and french fries, I am happy to have her home to eat normal and healthy again. And she was happy to run around the house with her toys instead of being confined to the king bed in the hotel and sleep peacefully in her own bed and not that scary hotel crib in the scary dark corner. Since I can't post pictures, I will try on Wed to get them emailed. We have lots of them and they are cute!
I am very excited for Wed morning also, the day is almost here, to find out what our little one is! Can't wait!
Now, if only these two both nap at the same time this afternoon, I will happily relax and try to stay awake to catch up on GH. Or maybe just close my eyes for a minute :)
Hope you had a great weekend!

What a day

and it's only just begun...
I just had a few annoyances this morning with work...which I will not get into because I'm sure everyone has opinions, and I don't feel like hearing them :) No offense of course!
My mood probably has a lot to do with the way I slept last night, actually probably with the way I've been sleeping. I forgot how bad you start to sleep while you're pregnant. You get pains when you roll over, you have to pee which means you have to get out of bed, which in turn causes more pains. I remember last time I was pregnant I heard the reason you sleep so bad is to prepare you for no sleep when you have the newborn at home. It made sense to me, but I have started taking sleep for granted again. All those nights AM has slept soundly for 12 hours....and now here we go again! I am being prepared because I am tired and I am definitely not sleeping well.
I am really looking forward to our trip, I saw yesterday that Fri and Sat are supposed to be 64 and 68 degrees. (side note...in a book they would put respectively there, but that always bothered me for some reason, anybody know anything about why they do that or how it started?). Anyway I think that will be great weather for SeaWorld and whatever else we do! Exciting!
And another thing I don't think I mentioned yet, I will be done working at the end of February...that is very exciting! I will get to start working more on our house and getting things ready for the baby..and potty training...ugh. (I'll take any suggestions!)

Consumed

When I am going to decorate I get so tied up in it. I am trying to do AM's new room in my head, since the room isn't ready for her yet ( we have to get our room ready first so we can move out of her soon to be room). Anyway, you'd think I would be consumed with our new room, which I would love to be buying new furniture and stuff for, but we are going to settle for our current stuff since it is plenty usable. AM needs new stuff, only because we decided instead of buying all new nursery stuff for the baby, AM is old enough to get a big girl's room (toddler big girl) and the baby can use the crib and since everything matches the crib, AM gets the new stuff. We have a little over a week til we find out what it is, if it's a girl...lucky us we don't have to buy anything new for the nursery except maybe some things for the wall where I would take AM's stuff to move. If it's a boy, well we spend a little extra for new bedding, new decorations, paint and a new rug. However the $ would suck, I would not stress because I already have an idea of what I would want for a boy's room, it's simple, it's navy, light blue and white. Anyway, so I am all consumed by AM's bedding, the rug, the windows, and the paint. Which frustrates me because if I'm going to have pink things (I'm not going to do purple again) then I was thinking white walls would be fine, but Cory doesn't like just white walls, nor does he want pink walls. I suppose I could do green again, but I'm thinking if I go with the bedding I'm looking at right now, I will have to go a different shade of her current green....see all consuming. So I guess I'll figure it all out eventually. And if I could possibly win the lottery in the process that would be great :)

Beyond morning (evening) sickness

I feel pregnant. It is no longer sick or tired (although I am still very tired..I did go to bed at 8:30 last night). It is the feeling of your stomach, when I bend over from a sitting position it gets smooshed and you realize it's uncomfortable. When I had to wrestle with Addie this morning to get her coat on and get into her car seat...it's uncomfortable. And so I've realized it's only going to get bigger and more uncomfortable, but I am doing better than the last time I think. Of course with a toddler you don't really have a chance to slow down at all. I guess it's just crazy how the time flies when you're so busy with one already. Here I am, half way there!
I am getting really excited about finding out what we're having, 2 weeks from yesterday, the appt will be here before I know it!
I am amazed by AM everyday, I love to watch her learn and grow and see the excitement in her eyes as she does. That's just a side note b/c I can't help but watch her :)

a highlight

One thing I forgot to say was one of my favorite things! My mom and I went to see Jersey Boys at the 5th Ave. It was my Christmas present to her. I loved it! We loved it..the show was sooo good!

Back Again

Back at work! We had a very nice time off for the holidays minus a terrible cold on AM's part...get to that in a minute.
The weekend before Christmas we got our new car. I am officially old with my new minivan. And I love it! It has so much room, and getting AM in and out is 100 times easier! Plus we got it for a good deal w/some added features...the leather, sunroof, heated seats for mom and dad, and the dvd system for AM and future sibling! We love it :)
Christmas was fun for all of us, we saw lots of family and AM had fun playing with all of her cousins and her new toys!
Our next week was not so great, AM got sick. It was horrible for her...and mom and dad. She had a runny nose, then complete congestion, fever for 3 days, and cough and runny nose that still won't go away! However we are back to her more normal self that can at least eat sleep and not scream constantly or lay on mom and dad constantly. She is playing again and eating and sleeping, so we are all much happier! Even if both of us have it too..at least we don't have fevers and we have a healthier baby.
So our New Years was mellow (obviously it would've been anyway), but my parents did come over for a nice dinner so we had great company. And C and I managed to stay up to 10 and at least watch other cities New Years :)
Now back to work, back to no holidays for awhile...but we do get to go on vacation in a week, a short one, but it will be a fun one for our family. I think C is most excited for Sea World! Hopefully AM has as much fun as daddy!
Happy New Year everyone! Xoxo