Ho Hum

That is how I feel. I am just in such a weird mood...I don't feel like doing anything, but then I also feel like I want to do fun things, but I can't, or don't want to, or don't know what to do. But I guess it doesn't matter because I am just working anyway! It's also the same with my appetite, nothing sounds good, ever. But obviously I have to eat, so I eat and I hate whatever I eat (except the cake you made last night mom! that was good). I don't feel like cooking, I don't feel like not cooking!
My hair is horrible and thank goodness I am getting it cut on Wed, although it needs color too but no go on that.
One thing that is scary about being pregnant...no matter what, you worry. Every night I go to bed and worry that something will be wrong, or go wrong, and you stress. I just hope and pray that this one is as healthy and happy as our first...it is a very scary and overwhelming thing...and I just have to remember that I did this the first time too, and it all ended up okay. But of course then you think nothing like that would happen to us, but it happens, always to people you think it wouldn't happen to, or who don't deserve it or whatever, but it happens, and it could just as easily end up happening to us. Ugh. Okay, enough of that, but it's hard to just stress in your head everynight. And it's almost like you're scared to say it because that makes the fear more real. But I did it, maybe it will take some of the stress away...maybe, for a minute.