Prayers

Please pray for a friend of mine, she needs it more than I could ever imagine.

2 days 1.5 hrs

I am almost done working! This is exciting, yet scary. I am so done with this place and I am so ready to have time to spend with just AM before the baby comes. We will have 3 months to hang out and enjoy eachother's company. I am a little stressed to not make the little bit of extra money that I now make though. It's not much but it's a nice buffer to have. I am also scared to officially be a stay at home mom of two kids...under 2. But in all reality that's what I've been doing since July so I guess it won't be much different (except for the fact they are both mine, fulltime, and I'm not getting paid...)
C and I had date night on Friday, dinner out was very nice. Saturday I got to have lunch with a couple friends unexpectedly & under not great circumstances, but it was very nice to see them. Sunday I had a prenatal massage, love those! I am still getting one more before I have him so I need to think about when I want to do that! They are soooo nice.
I am loving the weather, the sun, for the most part, makes me very happy!
However, it is the afternoon and I am getting really sleepy. Usually by 1:00 I am feeling like this. I need a nap, but that's just not possible while watching these 2 crazy kids! Aren't there people out there who can sleep with their eyes open? I need to learn how to do that.

shout out

Here is a shout out to my fav non blogger, sissy!
Love ya Cassie :)

Spring Fever

Since it is absolutely beautiful outside, I decided to dedicate this post to spring's version of my favorite things/things that make me happy. I had realized that seasons change my version of those things, so here they are:
Okay, still AM (somethings don't change!)
Flip flops!
Girlscout cookies
Cadbury MiniEggs (never the creme ones...!)
Ice cream (at night now, not in the afternoon)
General Hospital still...more specifically- Johnny Zacchara Hot :)
Tulips
Baby showers
Sunroofs
Pedicures
Taylor Swift cd (more specifically Our Song which AM dances to while I sing in the car:)
Target
a whole clean house, including the bathroom and my sheets
Spring accessories-Purses, Capris, and Sunglasses
And of course the sun!
Have a great weekend!

stats and blogs

AM had her 18 month check up yesterday. She got weighed, measured, checked out, given shots. Luckily we were in the sesame street room because it kept her busy for about a total of 5 minutes that we were there. She threw a few screaming fits but none nearly as bad as at home. Thankfully I didn't get too embarrassed, but the Dr sure makes you paranoid. He asks all these questions about what she's doing and they don't say much back so I sit and wonder if he's typing in the computer that she's completely off track and half retarded because she only says this many words. But he did say she is very strong and we should get her into gymnastics or dance when she can. Abs of steel, he said...and she's tall and skinny....C and I are wondering where she came from and whose kid she really is? So her stats: 2ft 9 (which C thinks is hilarious to say) and 22 pounds. I love every inch of her and just want to kiss her and kiss her!
I was surprised to see I made it on Wohn's top 10 fav blogs! It makes me happy to know someone else reads this with enjoyment since it is very nice to write it as some kind of escape or admission or whatnot-just to vent or say dumb things on my mind and not worry about it. It's not like you'd sit with one of your friends nowadays and talk so much about so many unimportant (and important) things. Maybe because we don't all live near eachother and maybe because we are all busy and we don't have time. I mean in college all we had was time to sit and talk. So this is good for all of us I think. I know I enjoy it.
Now for my fav blogs (sorry I can't link and I'm not going to comment on your blog b/c in all honesty it takes too long from my stupid phone).
Tanya, Mandy, Brooke, Wohn (although she doesn't blog nearly enough!) and same goes for Jazz. I also enjoy reading the lives in college of T's cousins Abby and Hillary.

Happy, $, and of course AM

So I decided I am pretty happy in life. This is good. Of course there are things that would make me happier, the only major one being money. I often think I am very happy in my life, if I could win the lottery it would only make things even better. I know, I know, they say money can't buy you happiness and many people have had terrible things happen when they win money. However, I will be cliché and say we would be different. Anyway, I am happy. I just like to daydream about not worrying about bills or being able to buy all the things we'd like. Daydreaming is nice but it's just a dream. My reality is great though and I am very lucky in life when it comes to family and friends, which are very important!
On a way different note, AM did this a few times already this morning...she picks a book, gives it to me, sits on my lap, and I read not even the whole first page before she closes it, puts it down, and grabs a different one. Why is that? Is it not what she expected? Does she not like the pictures or the words? It's interesting and I'd love to know the things that go on in her head! Oh, here she comes with another one...

And here it is

The big 3-0.
Wow.
I never thought I'd be spending my 30th like this...pregnant and watching my little one and sombody else's little turd :) (I say that lovingly as I call mine that very word, often :)
I am only frustrated by one thing (which isn't too bad considering I'm 6 months pregnant :). That one thing is, only every so often does my birthday actually fall on the holiday, when it does, it's great to celebrate because I have the day off! The stupid lady I work for doesn't have this as a holiday, so here I am, at work, but she decided to work from home....great. For her. I could've easily had the day off while she checked her email and watched her own son.
Enough venting. I do get to go out to lunch w/my parents so at least I'll be out of jail for an hour or so.
Here's to a good year, a healthy baby, a happy family, a beautifully remodeled downstairs, and a great celebration for my 31st :)

Mmm Hawaii

I don't know if it's the sun, or if it's because it's still actually winter and cold out, or if it's because C and I were daydreaming about winning the megamillions this morning...but I just had to stop myself from eating an entire pineapple! Are you kidding? It's so good, but I did give C some and the rest I put in the fridge. It's a lot of sugar but at least it's natural healthy fruit sugar, unlike the leftover tiramisu I ate earlier :) With AM I had a sweet tooth from the beginning, but with little TC here it has snuck up on me more lately. Anyway, I try to be healthy, and luckily I love fruit, but I also love dessert. Salt just doesn't call my name like sweets do right now. Good thing tomorrow is my bday and at our family dinner tonight my mom is baking her famous cowboy cake for dessert. YUM.
Issues.
Anyway, about the birthday, I just thought about it again this morning that I will be 30 tomorrow. Very odd, very crazy.
Side note: I just saw on tv that Kentucky is the 3rd largest producer/grower of marijuana in the US... Who would have thought?
Anyway, last night was dinner with some great friends. It was fun because I hadn't seen a lot of them in so long. Sad! I had a good time and it was nice of them to all celebrate Autumn's and my festivities. Next year we'll have to cheers with an adult bev or two, since 3 of us there were prego!
Have you ever wanted to live somewhere different? Mosy have wanted to, but for many different reasons, and many reasons why we don't at this moment. I have many other places I'd like to be. Here is a short list with reasons why:
-Montana, simple and beautiful
-Texas, Fri Night Lights, accents, big everything (hair, cars, diamonds)
-California-Sunny and an unexplainable happy feeling
- Hawaii- love it (and pineapple :)
- New York- city life
- Other random states in between- a less expensive life and maybe more simple as well
-Why I don't?- Family, friends,settled in, and comfortable.
I would like things to be cheaper here though, or I'd like to win the MM....
Ahhh to dream.

Sooo

My husband surprised me with beautiful tulips and a very sweet card. I made dinner and brought home a dessert. But our night wasn't anything romantic, it consisted of AM getting a bath, C falling asleep on the couch and me going to bed soon after AM. Not too exciting! But a nice enough evening :)
Today we got AM's toddler bed, even though she won't start sleeping in it until her room is done. I found the pbk one I wanted for sale online on craigslist. So that worked out great and a lot cheaper!
AM has been having a not so fun day, after meeting my dad for lunch, she decided to scream at me when I put her in her carseat. She wouldn't stop...I put her in the cart at Target (outside) and she wouldn't stop...so I waited, and waited, decide not a good idea to go inside the store and put her back in her carseat and we came home. She screamed and screamed and I put her in bed and she is luckily now asleep. I hope she's happier when she wakes up!
We have a busy weekend ahead, with friends and family and birthdays! Have a good one!

Happy Valentine's Day

I have always loved Valentine's Day..even if I didn't have a valentine, even if I didn't get flowers or chocolates or have a date. For some reason the idea of it all made me happy, or hopeful. I remember when I was almost 17 (4 days before), I decided I hated valentine's day and I would not be festive, or happy about it. I threw my hair in a ponytail and wore a hooded sweatshirt to school. AntiLoveDay. When school got out that day, my exboyfriend from another school was in the parking lot with roses. He then asked if he could take me to a movie that night. We didn't get back together (at least not then, but a couple yrs later) but that ended up being a wonderfully sweet valentine's day that I will never forget. Men don't realize it is the smallest gestures that mean the most, ones that you never saw coming. Why they don't pick up on this, I have no clue. (I don't mean to generalize, if yours does, more power to you guys, and remember you're lucky!)
Now you're probably wondering why I'm not writing about some terribly romantic gesture from my dear hubby (who is not the guy from 17, which most of you would know)...well my darling husband will even admit he somewhat lacks the romantic gene. And even though I find this to be an excuse, because I believe every man has the potential to throw out something romantic at some point, even if by accident. However, I have received flowers and a card in the past from my husband, this year he said we won't do any presents, cards, nothing. I agreed. I am still a woman though and I still have some terribly romantic things in my head that will not happen and I'll still be disappointed when they don't. If only a man could figure that out. Like flowers or whatever would be loved 100 times more if they were given when we said no gifts. But I don't really want him to spend $50 on flowers that will die in a week. I guess it's just the gesture, and women everywhere are hopeless romantics, many married to the men without the gene. Here's to you and hopefully a romantic gesture!

Oh my goodness

We are about to have 2 kids. Last night I realized I am almost to my 3rd trimester. Time has flown by and we are soon going to have another baby. I am excited and scared. Sometimes I get kind of sad thinking about not having 100% of my time with AM, but I also am happy to meet this little guy who moves around so much! And C and I are very excited to have our family complete! I think it will be like getting the missing piece, even if you never felt like something was missing.
I am emotional. These pregnancy hormones have me ready to cry at anything or in other cases yell at anything (Cory) :) heehee
I am also irritated by things and confused by people and I can read an email and I analyze too much and I get frustrated and irritated by things I don't even know if they are actually saying or not! Anyway, nothing that can't be cured by a glass of wine...in 4 or 5 months :) Anyway, I just need to get over it. And as my post yesterday was supposed to make me feel...not empowered, but ready I guess, I will move past those things. Life goes on and more important things await me in the future. Like my family, whom I must say, my husband, as much as I get mad at him during this pregnancy, I love him even more! He is there for me to vent to and I can tell him anything and talk to him about anything and he supports me and cares for me. Now if only he'd go get me ice cream before bed.....

Insight and decision

So Friday night 3 of my girlfriends and I went out for a 30th birthday celebration...no kids, but the 2 of us that are turning 30 are both pregnant, so no wild night in store. However, the other 2 turn 30 in Aug/Sept, which just happens to be our 30 1/2 bdays. And the decision was made we are really going to celebrate with a girls' night of spa, hotel, dinner and lots of wine. Hopefully this works out! C seemed a little worried to have the 2 kids alone when the baby is only 3 months old, but he'll be fine! Or there's always my mom who can take one. Anyway, after lots and lots of food and talking and fun, I have had an insight and made a decision. I will no longer stress about friends or friendships. I think they change and go where they want to go. I will no longer worry about why this or why so and so did that or said that. I am going to focus on friendships that are there, friendships that last through many things, and friends that do not picture me as a friend who is only convenient to have at that moment in their life. There are way more important aspects of life, family and friendships. I will cherish what I have, let go of what I don't, and love those that are close. And I just want those 3 beautiful women from Fri to know that I appreciate them and who they have grown into...we're way different than when we were 16, but also so much the same...remember I don't think any of you are old! Especially not 30! :) I can't wait for the next 20 years and many more memories to come.

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I don't know what I want to title this, so I'm not giving it a name. I haven't written lately for a few reasons, 1. not much to say, 2. anything I wanted to say seemed unimportant, uninteresting, or un..happy, un-motivating, un-optimistic, I'm not sure, just un-something, and 3. I'm writing today but only because it's been awhile, I still have something unimportant to say, but at least I am in a "more" mood rather than an "un" mood.
It's stormy outside. I love it. I just can't wait to go to my house because living on the hill with no barriers to block the wind on the deadend side, it gets really windy and I love it!
My dad is very sweet, he brings me coffee every once in awhile at work since I'm stuck here like jail, and it makes me happy. Today he brought me a decaf latte and a blueberry bagel (because he wanted me to eat something healthy, and "blueberries are very good for you"). So sweet :)
Why do kids think it's normal to eat cheerios off the floor? Or chew on shoes? Or as AM loves to do, play in the dog water...whether it's hands, feet, or occaisionally face...? It all just seems so unsanitary. But I was watching some show with AM yesterday and the kids were playing in the dirt, adding water, making mud, and play cooking pies and bread and soup and they found a worm in it and they were holding it and giggling. And I had a flashback to my very old house I lived in and I used to do that and I loved playing with potato bugs....it's very odd. We have no concept of what's dirty, or unsanitary. It's just weird to think about. They learn everything from us. What a responsibility! And sometimes it's such a reality and you realize you need to watch what you do and what you say because at this age they start picking up everything and you're really literally making them into the person they will become, with every action and every word. Sometimes it scares me! Sometimes it just makes me laugh, and all the time it makes me want to be a better person.