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I don't know what I want to title this, so I'm not giving it a name. I haven't written lately for a few reasons, 1. not much to say, 2. anything I wanted to say seemed unimportant, uninteresting, or un..happy, un-motivating, un-optimistic, I'm not sure, just un-something, and 3. I'm writing today but only because it's been awhile, I still have something unimportant to say, but at least I am in a "more" mood rather than an "un" mood.
It's stormy outside. I love it. I just can't wait to go to my house because living on the hill with no barriers to block the wind on the deadend side, it gets really windy and I love it!
My dad is very sweet, he brings me coffee every once in awhile at work since I'm stuck here like jail, and it makes me happy. Today he brought me a decaf latte and a blueberry bagel (because he wanted me to eat something healthy, and "blueberries are very good for you"). So sweet :)
Why do kids think it's normal to eat cheerios off the floor? Or chew on shoes? Or as AM loves to do, play in the dog water...whether it's hands, feet, or occaisionally face...? It all just seems so unsanitary. But I was watching some show with AM yesterday and the kids were playing in the dirt, adding water, making mud, and play cooking pies and bread and soup and they found a worm in it and they were holding it and giggling. And I had a flashback to my very old house I lived in and I used to do that and I loved playing with potato bugs....it's very odd. We have no concept of what's dirty, or unsanitary. It's just weird to think about. They learn everything from us. What a responsibility! And sometimes it's such a reality and you realize you need to watch what you do and what you say because at this age they start picking up everything and you're really literally making them into the person they will become, with every action and every word. Sometimes it scares me! Sometimes it just makes me laugh, and all the time it makes me want to be a better person.