Update on car shopping

So Cory had mentioned Sat afternoon going to Lynnwood Honda b/c we were already talking about going up to our old stomping grounds (Mill Creek) to eat dinner at my favorite mexican restaurant (West Seattle's just can't compare...) and go to the U Bookstore which is across the way from the restaurant so daddy can get AM a Christmas present especially from him. Anyway, I was just informed by my mom, who talked to her friend Sherri, that Lynnwood Honda is the dealer that is supposed to give the best deals in our area. They did lots of research and I do believe it. Sherri is the kind of person who, if you get a forward that says a bunch of stuff, she checks it out to see if it's real or not. So, anyone who takes time to do that would definitely know about where to buy a car. And they have an Odyssey, so I'll trust her :) Wish us happy car hunting on Sat!

Cars and Christmas

So C and I went to Burien Honda on Tuesday night. We had decided even though it was a small dealership, the guy was nice enough (pure car salesman though) and it was close if we ever needed to bring the car in. We knew the selection was small and they actually didn't have a color we liked, but the guy had said they could get one in. When we meet him Tues he switches his tune, there aren't any other colors out there at other dealers and even if there were they sure wouldn't be willing to trade him (because we're talking about 07s here). So we should just buy the 08 he has (after telling us for 4 days that the 07 was a much better deal). I'm like well, we'll take a look at the numbers but if it's too much, I would much rather look for an 07 in a color we like. You know what he quoted us....? $577 a month. For a fricking minivan...I'm like if I had that much money, I would be getting a Lexus or Mercedes. Ridiculous. So we thank him and say call us if you can get an 07 in a different color. Oh yeah I really want to help you guys get what you want. Blah Blah. Have we heard from him? Nope. So yesterday Cory drives by Renton Honda (way bigger dealer) and says there are like 25 Odysseys in one section. So, we are going to look there on Sat morning. I am sure many are 08s but we may get lucky. And maybe since they have more and probably want to get rid of them...we'll get a good deal. Who knows. Buying a car sucks, unless you're rich I guess.
However, on a happier note..this is my last day of work for 12 days! Merry Christmas to everyone if I don't blog until after. I hope you enjoy your time with family and friends and be thankful for that time! I know I am! Love you all! XOXO Merry Christmas!

Comparisons

I feel like one is always comparing, but in some cases we have to. Whether it's just curiousity, to be knowledgable, or just because that's what you do...compare. It can be to eachother, to themselves, about eachother, about themselves, material things, non-material things, kids, cars, houses, everything. Right now I am busy comparing 2 different aspects in my own life. One is this pregnancy, it is so different than the last one. I wouldn't even had known I was pregnant if I didn't realize I had probably missed my period, I didn't start feeling sick until later, and then it was at night not in the morning. And this freaking tumorous acne on my chin is out of control! With AM, I was sick right away, so I knew something was going on, I then took the test. I was sick every morning and day and I did not get disgusting prego zits. It just makes me wonder, is it different b/c it's a boy or is it just different? I guess only time will tell...well, Jan 16th will hopefully tell.
The next thing I'm comparing, cars, 07 vs 08 Odyssey (yes, I am going to be an old typical mom in a minivan). I am so indecisive, as is Cory. Hopefully he will be a good negotiator though! I think we're getting offered a great deal on 07 b/c they want to get rid of the new stock from this year and focus on 08s. We'll see though, we have another meeting with the guy at the dealership tonight and to see how much they will give us for Cory's truck. Wish us luck! And who knows, maybe the next time you see me driving up, you'll be like who's the soccer mom coming to the party? :) hahaha

Hmmm

I woke up at 4 in the morning and I started thinking how our tabs never came in the mail for the truck. For some reason this year I decided to mail in the check for both our cars (both due in Dec but mailed separately in Nov). They came for the explorer and now I'm irritated that I have to go to the stupid DOL for the truck. I wonder....can I just trade the truck in w/o new tabs...? It is kind of annoying to pay $100 and then trade it in the next week....
I am also irritated by hearing Wanda Sikes voice all the time as the stupid Applebees apple. Shut up already.
And after all that, I just heard Michael Jackson (in the Jackson 5 version) singing I saw mommy kissing santa claus...which might be the most annoying Christmas song, and yes I think it's worse than the chipmunk song.
Also I am debating on canceling my gym membership...I haven't been since right before I got pregnant w/AM. I hate paying for something I don't use. Even if it's not that much, but it's money I could use elsewhere, like for WW when I'm done being prego this time. It's not like I'll have time to go to the gym with 2 kids....I should just cancel.
On a happier note than all previously mentioned annoyances, this weekend was great, full of Christmas festivities, family and friends. Can't wait til Thurs afternoon when I get almost 2 weekes off. Wow I almost feel like a teacher :)

Oh my head...

If I could drink I would think I had a hangover. My head hurts so bad! But obviously it's a pregnancy headache, which can def feel worse than a hangover, especially when you're stuffed up, your eyes are dry and burning and you are on the verge of terrible heartburn (and the only thing I had to bring for lunch today was chili so trust me this afternoon my heartburn will be bad news bears). Anyway, if it was Monday I'd probably cry, but it's Thurs and I don't have to work tomorrow so I'm going to make it through the day! I'm determined!
Yesterday our girls lunch was wonderful and we decided one more, at the end of Dec. And Cass and I are going to pile into her car, with all our girls and drive to Jenny's! It should be fun...and interesting :) The 2 of us and 4 little girls....all the way to BL! :) Good times! It reminds me of when we were maybe 16 and Jenny, Cassie and I drove all 3 of us smooshed in the front seat of my car to go to our friend Joey's house (he moved from WS to Redmond I think), and we followed his directions, but missed the I90 exit from I5 (mind you this exit is like 10 minutes from where we live) and ended up in Everett before we decide we must've gone too far and turned around..we did make it eventually, but by the time we got there we only had time to say hi and leave again. Very fun times, and good memories! This time will be a little different obviously...4 little girls, one of whom I was told gets car sick...uh oh and we will have a navigation system :) I told Cass I may drive her car since she laughed and said I'd be turned around the whole time taking care of the kids' needs in the back...I'm like my kid just sits there, I'll drive, you can turn around :) haha!
Tomorrow is the fun family day downtown (and my dr appt but whatever). I'm just excited to take AM on the horsies (carousel) and see her have fun. And next week is my last week before Christmas, I get that whole week off! YEAH!
Okay, my head is killlllling me...and reading this screen is not helping, have a wonderful weekend!!!!

Happy

I started to watch Cinderella Man last night (which I've already seen) but I stopped because it was way too sad and depressing, the whole Depression thing and them losing everything, the kids not having enough to eat, the last straw before I changed the channel was the guy shutting off their heat in the snow and those poor little kids and the mother's desperation, it was too much for my tired, prego, emotional self to handle. So, along the lines of favorite things....these are things that make me happy.
AM (obviously, everything about her, I love it all!), anxious happy thoughts about the new baby, raisinets, sour raspberries, those fuzzy soft socks to start my night in bed in (I then pull them off when I'm warm, with my feet), cereal, ice cream (only in the afternoon not at night), watching General Hospital when the kids are napping, Christmas music (you all know that already), Christmas lights, my Christmas tree, Christmas shopping (okay so Christmas everything), a hot shower when I'm cold, putting clean pjs on, clean sheets, going out to lunch with my mom and AM, the new version of "date night"..family night, a good hair day, scarves, uggs, my bathroom clean, snow, a nap. Hmmm, good idea :) bye!

A good Monday morning..?

Amazingly enough I am in a good mood this morning. Maybe it's that AM is so adorable and sweet (even after the terror she was last night:). Maybe it's that I walked into work and realized I actually missed the little guy after my 5 days off. Maybe it's that he loves me too and doesn't have separation anxiety like his mom told me he has been having with even his dad. (which does make me sad for him b/c I know what it's like for that to happen, I spend more time w/him than he does, but I'm looking at it as happy for me, that he's not crying when I hold him w/his mom still here, or gone). Maybe it's that I have my Christmas music on and it makes me happy. Maybe it's because I know how happy AM will be with one of her Christmas presents, the anywhere chair from PB kids...sooo cute and she will love sitting in her own little chair. Maybe it's because I got a baby name book and C is actually letting me read ideas to him...or maybe it's that he actually suggested we look at one in the fiest place. Maybe it's because the girls are coming over Wed for our last lunch of 2007 (and hopefully not forever b/c Jenny is going back to work :( ). And maybe it's because Friday C is taking a comp day to spend with AM and I, going to my dr's appt, and then downtown for lunch, Christmas shopping, and to take AM on the carousel. Or maybe it's a little of everything...and I'm actually in a good mood on this particular Monday morning :) Hope you have a good one too!

Twighlight Zone

As I sit here and watch AM untie my shoes, while the little guy naps, after a morning where he clung to me every second until I fed him and he went to bed, I listen to his grandma "sing" her notes in the kitchen...she warned me...said I may hear some music for her music class...I thought maybe from her Mac laptop that's sitting in front of her, but no...the 'music', the notes..are coming from her. Trust me it is not like Julie Andrews in the Sound of Music either :) But I have spent the past 2 days trying to figure grandma out. You know there are the ones who bake, the ones who shop, the ones who walk, the ones who hate young people, nice ones, mean ones, skinny ones, fat ones, ones who love their grandkids and ones who could care less about them. So I had thought that she loves the little guy but maybe is not so comfortable with him because this is only the 2nd time she's seen him, she is skinny, she looks 'natural', like granola natural, she went for a walk, but that was after sitting in front of her laptop all day. Which Cory did ask me "what kind of grandma has a laptop?" :) But after all this, I know what she reminds me of, my, your, all of our, elementary school music teacher. Ahhhh, ohhhh, laaaa. Doooe, Raaaeee, Meeee.
What's funny though...I am so comfortable with this whole crazy family, and I've actually met more of them than I ever imagined I would. Obviously the mom and dad. Then his dad and step mom, his sister, his cousin and her boyfriend, and now his mom. Her fam lives in CA, so hard to meet, or I'm sure I would have. Anyway, it's like the twilight zone and I'm eerily comfortable in it.

TFIT (or F)

I was praying last night it would snow. I love the snow, we had gotten our Chrstmas tree (although it's only in the garage drying from the rain it was covered in), the Christmas lights are up, and I was cozy inside. But my main reason for wanting snow last night...? I did not want to work today! I think my innerself knew what kind of day this day was going to be! We woke up late. AM has been waking up early everyday, like 6 or 6:30. Today I kept sleeping when Cory left and AM didn't wake up...neither did I, until I opened my eyes and saw light...uh oh, that's bad! It was 7:25, we leave about 8. So no shower...I only got to wash my face, brush my teeth, throw some mascara on, and clean clothes. AM was not happy with the rushing out of the house! All morning the kids whined and cried and he wanted up, so she wanted up, then he would cry, then she would want down, he didn't want to take his morning nap, he didn't want to play, she wanted everything she couldn't have. And then they ate lunch. Ahhh. They are playing together for the 1st time today with their toys, not things they're not supposed to have, no binky for AM to take out of his mouth and he's not even crying! I thought I'd blog with my 10 minutes of peace :) And around 1..they will both nap, and his will hopefully be long since it's his 1st! Then I will only have a few hours left and I can get on with my weekend! Hope yours is wonderful :) And Happy Birthday Tanya!

Patience and whatnot

I wish I had more today! These kids were testing me all morning, luckily they both napped this afternoon..and I got a 25 minute snooze in myself! I needed it. I thought I was going to fall asleep playing with them after lunch. Cory asks when he calls why I'm so tired....hmm chasing a crawling baby, a toddler, and I'm pregnant...why? I just don't know. (for those who've never been pregnant, you haven't felt the tiredness of pregnancy, maybe someday you will and you'll think back to this and how you didn't believe me or just didn't understand, but you will..I promise!)
I have been listening to Christmas music, all day, everyday, I love it. It makes me happy. Cory isn't such a fan :) haha! He makes me change the station in the car. Well the kids can't choose so Christmas music it is! Yeah for me!
This afternoon I was looking at AM and I can see so many different aspects from both of our families. It's like I see Cory and his side but it's hard to pinpoint exactly, the eyes or top part of her face maybe. Then I see so much of my side, particularly my dad's sister Lonna and her daughter, my cousin, Wendy. I see me too, but I think because she has brown eyes I see so many that aren't me. It just amazes me that you can make one adorable child and blend so many people, from such big families! It makes me excited to see what our next will look like, you know those families where one kid looks like the mailman or something. Like I have a family of cousins (the previously mentioned Wendy is the oldest), and the 3rd out of 4 has blonde hair and blue eyes when all the rest have brown hair and brown eyes. It makes me smile and I wonder what this one will look like. But I guess first and foremost I wonder, boy or girl? We should find out Mid January. Time will fly, but that day seems forever away!

Holidays and memories

I am so glad Thanksgiving is almost here! I want to have the day off work to spend with AM and C. I want to get dressed and go to my parents and eat yummy food. I want to hear football in the background as I help in the kitchen. I want to put AM in her pjs and watch her get really sleepy after playing with her cousins. I want to wake up Fri morning early, get coffee, and go Christmas shopping all day with AM and my mom.Then Sat we have Applecup and leftovers with Cory's family...it will be a great long weekend and I am thankful for my family and friends!
After reading Jazzy's blog, it made me think about all those fun memories made with friends throughout the years, but I have a different outlook I think. I don't see the memories as fading away, although I know many do, and I know friends grow apart and lives change. I just see those memories as absolutely wonderful, at least the ones that I feel really are wonderful, really are great memories worth keeping. There aren't the same opportunities now to make more like that, but there are opportunities to make new and different memories, shall we say "grown up" memories. Not to say we still can't have hilarious drunk laughing memories, that is still grown up to me :) They are probably fewer and far between b/c we have families and responsibilities, but they will happen, and they will stay in our heads and hearts I promise!

Finally!

So here I am once again! My phone was acting up and then it just wouldn't connect to the web or anything, no email, incoming calls weren't coming, but then they were. I called tech support this morning and you know what I had to do? Take the battery out...so simple. It works again! Sure makes you feel really smart :)
So, what's been happening...AM got her Christmas pics taken and they are adorable! Happy Birthday to Mandy last week! Tomorrow is my first ultrsound...excited, anxious, and praying there is only one :) Another of my friends is pregnant right now, just found out! So that's 3 I found out about since myself...so many pregnant people! 2008 will be the year of many babies, and baby showers! Jenny says it will be the year of the boy...we shall soon see!

A Family Trip

So Cory kept saying all summer that we should use some of our miles to go somewhere. I kept agreeing but everytime I looked online I just couldn't justify using 80,000 miles to go somewhere for just a weekend...we've been saving our miles for Europe and damnit I plan on using them and getting Cory there someday! But yes, life happens, kids happen, time goes by, but in this process, you build enough miles between the two of you, that you can have your weekend and Europe too! So this fall when Cory said we should go somewhere for a weekend before the baby is born, I said yeah I was thinking let's drive down to the Ocean for a weekend, and he said no, let's fly before you can't fly anymore. We discussed it more and he wanted to take AM to Sea World and he's never been to San Diego...I haven't been in years so it sounded like a great idea. After looking into it, we are only using 40,000 miles and we're going for a long weekend in January, so we're all looking forward to our family trip! And I think both of us are excited to take our little AM somewhere fun without her future sibling...it will be harder with 2 kids I'm sure. And this will be her trip for herself with mom and dad! Now I just need to figure out where we're going to stay, I'm being somewhat indecisive with the hotel situation! I'll take any suggestions if you have them :)

Hormones

For any of you who haven't read Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy, you need to. Whether you have been pregnant, are pregnant, plan on being pregnant, or even know somebody who is pregnant. Mainly I say this because of hormones. I read this book at the very beginning of my first pregnancy. This time, my daughter found it where we nanny, and funny enough, I was just pregnant when she brought this book to me from the bookcase (not her usual pick of the weird books these people have). So I decide to scan the book and I forgot so many things, and last time I had read it so early I couldn't relate to most of the stuff. Now looking back, oh I do remember, but not as clearly as I am experiencing them now. I am mostly experiencing the chapter titled Psycho Chick (Hormone Rage). Cory also does not seem to remember this phase because he dismisses everything related to pregnancy as an excuse of some kind....which if he would take a second to realize, that just throws me into an even deeper state of psycho chick. Needless to say, that's how the majority of our weekend spent together went. And I feel no need to apologize because I don't care if people want to think of it as an excuse, that's fine, but don't tell me that, you guys can keep your thoughts to yourself. I am pregnant and I am psycho and I am not sorry, I am hormonal. And I may be divorced soon! HaHa!

I cannot believe it's November

Where does time go? Wasn't it just summer? Halloween is over...that means Thanksgiving is coming and Christmas shopping, and all the holiday festivities...I can't believe it's all here again!
I was talking to my mom's friend last week that just had a baby and we had the same thoughts...you look at a newborn and wonder how they develop and grow so much over so little time. I can't even remember AM so little and unmoving and not the crazy little active girl I have now! It's just crazy how they grow. But it does make for a fun Christmas this year, I'm excited for her to really look at Santa this year and to see the excitement in her eyes with presents and lights and decorations. So much to look forward to!
Halloween went well, she did great in her costume, had fun trick or treating at grandma's work, grandmama's house and the neighbors! It was a good time :)
I'm looking forward to the weekend, hope you all have a good one!

Fat Days

So this morning getting ready I was actually going to wear something other than a typical sweatshirt...why? I don't know, I get sick of the same old same old, but I watch my baby and another so wearing cute clothes is just a waste. Anyway, I was having a fat day, so on went my hooded sweatshirt and jeans (which is a step up from the sweats I wore yesterday...maybe). And not even a nice sweatshirt like I try to wear out, it's the WSU sweatshirt from 7 yrs ago with a small hole on the sleeve and paint from a few different painting adventures. My point is, even if you haven't gained any weight from being pregnant yet, you can still feel your body changing, the stomach becoming bloated, for many other reasons than the baby in there....(ugh) and at this point, somedays you just need to wear an old hooded sweatshirt to not feel like a complete blimp. Today was one of those days :)
On a happy note, tomorrow, our little AM will be the absolute cutest little Tigger you've ever seen!!! I cannot wait! I tried the outfit on her last night, just half way, to see if it fit, and she loved it, she wanted to keep wearing it and got mad when I went to hang it back in her closet. Ooooh soooo cute! Happy Halloween tomorrow!

Baby Hugs

When your baby learns how to give kisses, it's sweet and wonderful. But when you don't even realize she knows how to or what a hug is..and then she comes up and puts those little arms around your neck and squeezes, it's the best feeling in the whole world! I remember how I felt when she did that for the first time but it still makes me smile and melt everytime she does it. If I ask for one , it's so wonderful to get one. But you can't even explain how nice it is when least expected. I was sitting on the floor with the kids this morning and I was spaced out thinking about something and I think I was kind of sad...and then I feel these little arms squeezing my neck and see her little smiling face in mine and I forget all the problems in the world! Ahhh.

my day

There are 2 things that got me through this day, chocolate and tears. Okay and the best thing, was also one of the causes...usually is huh? AM, such a joy always (when she smiles, hugs and kisses) but such a pill today, actually today not so bad, this afternoon and I'm sure to be the rest of the evening..ugh. But it's just one of those days. Unfortunately it seems those days when I really need a break, Cory has to stay late at a project and his work becomes my enemy, except they pay the bills so what can you do?! Today was one of those days that the rain didn't help, the hormones of pregnancy definitely didn't help, and I wish I had a friend nearby that had kids and could relate to the insanity and talk to me on the phone so the only adult conversation I had wasn't with the dog groomer. It's not that she's a devil child even, not today. Just very fussy, whiney, and "I will cry if my mommy doesn't pick me up and I will cry if she does, and I will cry when she leaves the room, takes something away from, like the foil covered chocolate that I put in my mouth and the glass dish that holds them that I am pulling on and is about to drop on the floor and break". But, C is almost home, and at least I will get 10 minutes alone, to empty the dishwasher...

It's all jumbled

The worst thing that has been happening in the middle of the night is I wake up (usually to pee..) and I cannot go back to sleep. So I lay there thinking about everything you can't do anything about at 2:30 in the morning and finally dose off about 4:30..and then C's alarm goes off at 4:45 and again at 5am. I finally go back to sleep when he leaves at 5:45 and I wake up to get ready for work at 6:45. It's horrible. I am then sooo tired in the afternoon, but no naps for me...and C wonders why I crawl into bed at 9pm! So my jumbled thoughts come at 3am so don't get confused if I don't make sense! How do you have a toddler's bedroom next to a new baby's? I am so worried about the new one crying, me getting to it, having it wake up AM and then C having to try and get to her to calm her and then what if she wants me and I'm trying to feed the baby. Too much stress! I was recently told the age difference will suck for the 1st 6 months and then it's great. I can see that...but it still scares me. So this time being pregnant it's different when friends stop talking to you or making plans...maybe b/c I'm not by myself, I am always busy with AM so I have less of a life already. But any of you who have had kids, did you experience that change? Why do you think it is? Can't hang out and drink anymore? I'm just not sure....
Anyway, I can't believe it's not even Halloween yet and I am already excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas! I guess it's okay though b/c time goes so fast, at least I have some time to be excited beforehand. It will be over again before we know it! I'm excited that AM will be more aware of Christmas this year, it will be so much fun! I got her Christmas dress this last weekend. It's so cute! I have to schedule pictures!
Talk soon-

A husband surprises...

So this week has been full and very satisfying in wierd ways. After AM goes to bed, I clean up and then I have gone to bed early to watch whatever I want on tv and C doesn't even try to make me stay and watch football or baseball...which makes me very happy! I have felt very domesticated, not sure if it's the new kitchen or the pregnancy, but cooking has been fun and I tried new recipes and it was fun :) Until last night...I had a hair appt and I had spent the morning cleaning and cooking because Jenny & Cassie and their girls came over for a fun afternoon of lunch and talking. So after all that I did not feel like trying the 3rd new recipe of the week for dinner, I ended up bringing home papa murphys after my haircut. Much easier! So on to my husband's surprise. Last night out of nowhere C starts telling with AM he put off the naming for so long and didn't really think about it too much. Which I was witness to because he never wanted to talk about names and we didn't tell anybody even our thoughts and it was such a wait until the end kind of thing. Well, he said he has been thinking about names constantly already, going over the few we have chosen so far and trying to think of more and going over all his thoughts about this and that and what he likes best. I think I was in shock, but it also made me happy because last time it was like pulling teeth to get him to talk about potential names...I might have more luck this time!!! My other surprise was him telling me he can't imagine loving another baby like AM. I was surprised by this because I guess I just thought I had those feelings and I realized I never even talked to him about them..wierd because I've talked to all you about it? But now we will both learn about loving two! One funny thing though, when he said this, he compared AM to Raven..and Bisou to our new baby..he's never really done this before, comparimg our dogs to our real kid(s) but it made sense because he never thought he'd like Bisou because we didn't "need" another dog,& now he spoils her rotten!

Child Thoughts

It is crazy having a child. You can go from looking at this perfect little angel that you made wondering how she got to be so cute, so smart, so wonderful...to wondering how she can be this devil child that will throw a fit (even if it thankfully only lasts 15 seconds), pinch your face, pull your hair, or open her little mouth with a jaw full of piranah teeth aimed at your finger. Then there are times when I worry how I will handle this 2nd one because it breaks my heart when she wants up while I'm trying to feed the little guy his bottle and shejust wants her mama. However, he isn't my child and of course I want to pick her up...but when there is a new little one...how will I ever not feel guilty, or more sadly, I do not want to not feel guilty. I don't ever want AM to feel she is less important or anything along those lines. I know I will make it, mothers do everyday, mothers with way more than 2 spread their love just wonderfully...and I will do it too. But is there a favorite? Are parents lying when they say there isn't...? Anyway, I love her more than this world...even when Chucky comes out to play :)

Ho Hum

That is how I feel. I am just in such a weird mood...I don't feel like doing anything, but then I also feel like I want to do fun things, but I can't, or don't want to, or don't know what to do. But I guess it doesn't matter because I am just working anyway! It's also the same with my appetite, nothing sounds good, ever. But obviously I have to eat, so I eat and I hate whatever I eat (except the cake you made last night mom! that was good). I don't feel like cooking, I don't feel like not cooking!
My hair is horrible and thank goodness I am getting it cut on Wed, although it needs color too but no go on that.
One thing that is scary about being pregnant...no matter what, you worry. Every night I go to bed and worry that something will be wrong, or go wrong, and you stress. I just hope and pray that this one is as healthy and happy as our first...it is a very scary and overwhelming thing...and I just have to remember that I did this the first time too, and it all ended up okay. But of course then you think nothing like that would happen to us, but it happens, always to people you think it wouldn't happen to, or who don't deserve it or whatever, but it happens, and it could just as easily end up happening to us. Ugh. Okay, enough of that, but it's hard to just stress in your head everynight. And it's almost like you're scared to say it because that makes the fear more real. But I did it, maybe it will take some of the stress away...maybe, for a minute.

Oh my gosh

So I know I must sound terrible to those of you that that was new news for! I am very excited! I really am! It's a very different feeling this time though, the 1st time that was all I could think about, this time, you have one already that all your time and energy goes into so you don't have 24 hrs a day to relax and daydream. I find that I forget and then when I do have a second to sit down and think, I am almost surprised again and then I remember and get happy and anxious and wonder what everything will be like. Anyway, it is different this time, but I am still very happy! Sorry my last post didn't seem like it, but I am! :)

So much in a week

Okay, so a week has passed, we've been busy and home sick this week. I did try to post yesterday while AM was napping, but my phone was acting up. I am thinking that's good though because I think it would have been negative...well not necessarily negative, but I was down, so it would have probably sounded whiney or something along those lines. I have been moody, stressed out, tired, then AM got sick, and now I'm sick...that should sum it up in a nutshell. The only time I had left my house from Sun night thru this morning was C and I got a dinner out on Tues, my mom came to watch AM and out we go. Dinner was fine, we talked (which was more adult conversation than I had had in a few days) and then on the drive home...we end up fighting, yelling, and I cry and I slam the door on the way in the house and we don't talk the rest of the night. Or more like he doesn't talk, I did say 1 or 2 things and he didn't respond, which makes me MORE mad. Anyway, I decide yesterday that I am NOT apologizing b/c I feel I did nothing to start this fight, however I did react. But I always apologize first b/c usually I am sick of fighting and would rather apologize and move on. So I never apologized, we just moved on yesterday, so no big deal. Oh how to explain this...I will just say it, there are only like 5 people who read this and 3 of you know, for the other 2, I am prego...please do not spread the word or talk to anybody, it is very early and I haven't even been to the dr. I just figured this is my blog and if I am going to be emotional for the next couple months, I should be able to have an explanation and not all of you think I'm just annoying! :) Anyway, that will explain the moodiness, the stress, the tired, the catching of the cold, the crying...the reacting to the fight because I am overly sensitive and the stubborness b/c I am pregnant and feel like my husband shouldn't be so mean and unsympathetic, and then when I get mad and cry, he asks so rudely "what is wrong with you?". Are you kidding me??

Happy Birthday!

Today is C's b-day! He is now 32, and said this morning he feels 82. Uh oh. He laughed though, so at least he's keeping his sense of humor in his old age :)
Today I am about as irritated as you can get, being a nanny. Long story short, if you are going to stay home, I do not need to be here...take care of your own kid. There is a reason I didn't sign up to work with a family that was going to be home with me. And if I'm trying to keep/get your baby on a schedule...you can't sabotage it the days I'm not here...this kid will not sleep! Okay...deep breaths.
This weekend will be busy, tomorrow I have to get ready for the party and Sat is the party! And Sunday we have a 1 yr old's party to go to. Good times, good times.
For C's bday tonight, we are making his fav dinner of soft tacos and I got him a DQ ice cream cake as a surprise! Should be a fun evening with the family :) So happy birthday honey and hope you all have a great weekend!

So much to say

So I skipped Tues because I didn't have much to say...now today I feel like I have a million thoughts! First, I love T's blog about the fair and I cannot wait to go next year and take AM! I used to go every year, like my whole life. Well C is from up north and had never been so we went when we were first dating. Bad experience...he hated it, we fought, then he ended up dropping the different colored sand candle I made for us, on the way to the car, and he felt sooo terrible and then we made up. But, we haven't been back. And I kind of think about possibly going every year and I don't. But next year, I'm taking AM, and I bet C will want to go too. Everything is different when you have kids.
Okay next thing is I was thinking after talking to T about how much fun it would have been if I went to Portland with her. I think when we are all old we need to go to Vegas or something. It will be like an old married w/kids kind of trip instead of a bachelorette party. Just some girls, and we'll drink too much, eat too much, and shop. It will be fun, maybe when we're like 35 or something.
Next is I am so not into work, you give me a baby who is teething, won't nap, is having separation anxiety, and won't let me put him down (and it's not my kid)....I need it to be 4:30 and I need a glass of wine. Enough said.
And finally, C and I will be putting finishing touches on our upstairs this weekend, I am also picking up our new rug tomorrow (I am sooo hoping I like it when I get home...). So let's hope it all looks wonderful so we can relax next week before the party!

Every Monday?

I am wondering if every Monday will be hard to get out of bed, hard to get ready and go to work...? "A case of the Mondays" you hear people say..it's true. Why can't we just always have Mondays off? Or like once a month even. I feel like everyone is always so busy over the weekend, you need one day to actually try and relax! Oh well..not until I'm president huh?
This weekend was fun and busy! Friday we had lunch with Jenny and Maddi- the baby slept through lunch (Jenny was happy about that :) and she is an adorable little girl! Sat we went to our friend's baby shower (to see pics see T's blog!) Then that night I went w/Jazz for a couple late night beers. And Sunday my husband took AM and I to a yummy breakfast and an unsuccessful trip to Home Depot...which made him hate HD more and throw a few choice words around. Mom, AM & I braved Ikea on a Sunday...which was also unsuccessful b/c I didn't find what I needed...Then Cory made a wonderful dinner that was him & his mom's fav- a little "in remembrance" of her, along w/a bouquet w/sunflowers I brought home for our table (her favorite flower). Then we even finished painting the dining room after AM went to bed.
So it's Monday again, the week starts over...and with the sun now peaking out, I have a little more energy, a half smile, and a cuddly baby on my lap who doesn't want to be put down and loves kisses.
Here's to getting everything done that needs to be done this week...and except for the Hawks, hopefully a new week for football!

One of those days

I actually had good energy when I got up this morning, I got ready, felt happy about the day (probably mostly because it's my Friday), it seemed to go fine until maybe 10...
Then I got tired, had no motivation, no energy, 2 babies to watch (1 who doesn't like to take naps), and I felt done.
I feel like curling up on my couch at home in sweats, with my baby girl (okay, so she won't, but I can watch her run around), my dogs, a good meal (b/c I'm hungry), and then a glass of red wine.
2 more hours to go.
And then all that will happen... until AM goes to bed and C and I have to finish painting the dining room and taping the living room...we've been procrastinating.
But tomorrow will bring a newly energized day because I don't work and I get to meet Jenny and her babe for lunch w/my babe. Fun times! Have a great weekend everyone!

Brrr it's fall

So today I was thinking I was going to get too hot in my outfit (haha like it's a cute outfit or something...sweats and a sweatshirt, but they are cuter than just your average sweats and sweatshirt, I promise). Anyway, then I hear on the radio a high of like 58 or something? I'm like fall is definitely here! And where I nanny, she showed me how to turn the heat on! You have got to be kidding me! It may be kind of chilly outside, but I run around after a one year old and carry around this huge baby boy! I am sweating! Anyway, I live with the heat nazi at my house. Cold? Put on a sweatshirt. Heat doesn't go on til it's freezing and it goes off every night, when you leave, and April 1st (if not earlier)...he let up a little last year having a newborn in the house, but I think this winter she'll have to learn to be a little cooler and momma will have to put her in a sweatshirt!
Anyway, I love fall, I love the change of most seasons, but fall brings nostalgic thoughts of school shopping, the beginning of a new year, once again football season, and now newer things (well 7 yrs new..) Cory's birthday, Halloween (which I like more now as I've gotten older..maybe it's b/c I like the party :), those cold nights cuddled in the house watching tv with a yummy "wintery" dinner and a glass of wine. It's just more fun times and more memories to build!
Next thing up is Cory's bday party, which I'm looking forward to having some friends over because I realized besides a few here and there, it's been almost 2 years since we've had all our friends over for any type of get together...should be fun!

It's definitely Monday

I slept terrible, which sucks because I was so tired. And I stayed up because I got sucked into a dumb movie :) Those are usually funny ones though...what was it called, like Big Liar on Campus or something...on abc family. Totally dumb, but funny nonetheless! This Monday though...I think I would've given anything to not go to work...no desire at all, and if I worked in an office, I would've called in sick. It's just after a long weekend full of too much drinking at the tailgate, too much working on the house, and not enough relaxing or laying down :)...I'm just exhausted from my weekend and I need a weekend to recover! But of course all that busy-ness means it was a fun weekend! Good times with friends!
Once I recover, I'll be ready to do it again...!

Random Thought

First of all, it's hard for me to believe that it is going to be 78 degrees this afternoon. It is overcast and not necessarily warm. Either way I don't care, but I thought it was weird.
Second of all I LOVE weekends. Seriously...I don't know how I could be happier than I am each week when it is time for the weekend. I love NOT working. Really wish we could win the lottery...but as Cory tells me, we need to play to win. Whatever. I still like to dream.
Third...I like reading. I go through phases of finding time to read and then not reading for awhile. This last week I read a book and I finished it, and I am sad I don't have another one with me to read today. Trust me, it's of no intellectual value, but it's entertaining nonetheless and it takes me to another place. I like that escape. It's like a good movie, but I never have time to watch a whole movie! I do however have 20 minutes here and there to enjoy reading. It is fun to live vicariously through characters and have their adventures. I always wonder...the people I nanny for have weird books...are they just for looks or do they actually read them? You can tell lots by peoples books. I never have them in my house though because my mom, my sis in law, and I share and rotate. Lots cheaper that way!
So those are some random thoughts for Thursday (my Friday! beginning of my weekend starts at 4:30!)
Here comes football, painting, and trips to Home Depot!

Hmm prego thoughts

No, I am not pregnant. I was a few months ago dying to be, then I was over it once again. A time here and there I thought I might be, then happy I wasn't, then sad I wasn't. More recently I've had major thoughts about how much I absolutely love AM and don't necessarily want to share that love, attention, or ability to spoil...even though everyone tells me it is possible to do with two (or even three). I know this is true and I know I will have another, whenever it happens. I got some very exciting news...my sis in law, who I knew to be expecting, though not everyone in the fam knows yet, is having twins! So I am so happy and excited for them! I wake up in the middle of the night, I think about them and am so happy for them. And then I talk to her this morning...she is obviously still in some shock...twins don't even run in their families, but she said she is going to go through a state of depression, she is scared, and not happy. I was then in a little shock....here I was so excited about it, and yes, I must say I would be very scared...but sad? I told her it will pass, I know it is just the shock. I just hope she will feel better about it and realize it's a joy! Scary...but still a joy! And they need bigger cars :)

Coffee makes a difference

As I watch AM take all of the baby's bibs out of the drawer and throw them on the floor...and he is sitting watching her and laughing...I realize that life is good and when I might usually get impatient with her, tell her no, and put everything back, only to get into a power struggle until she then becomes bored, forgets about it, moves on to something else more entertaining while I would sit still steaming about the encounter. Does it really hurt anything? She is taking them out, but also having fun (and learning I must say) as she opens and closes the drawer, taking them out and then putting them back. So, I smile because I think it's the Starbucks doubleshot w/cream-light that I just had...a pick me up to get me through this afternoon because I have a very good idea that neither of these little ones will be taking an afternoon nap....

Lots of things...

Today's title....it expresses what is going on in my head. First of all I had a post for Tuesday but it got lost, then a new post that was a very short recap because I was irritated...then it wouldn't post...and needless to say I was done with that. But today I will recap once again because this morning I had different feelings about similar things. Tuesday was raining and school was starting. Kids were everywhere and I loved the feeling of fall, start of the school year, start of football season, how excited my husband is about football season, everything was great. That afternoon, with no sun out...I was ready to go to sleep by 2:00...I was tired and exhausted and everyone blamed the weather. Today I got stuck in a school zone on the way to work, behind a bus, lots of kids and parents walking across the street....I must take a different street to work now because although I was very calm this morning...I know that those coming cold and rainy mornings that I'm running late and I get stuck..I will not be that surprisingly patient :)
They say if your marriage survives a remodel, it will survive anything. Our kitchen is almost done, it is coming together and it looks gorgeous, and we are very happy. However. I feel like I've been very patient and laid back when it comes to everything, living with no kitchen, making AM's bottles and food on one tiny little section of the dining room table covered in everything we can fit on it, including the microwave. I have not complained, I have been optomistic. Last night I wanted to move to Hawaii without my husband! But after yelling and leaving for my hair appointment, I didn't talk to him for a few hours and then at 9:30 I gave him a hug and we both went into a deep sleep. I think we'll make it and our kitchen will be gorgeous.

4 day weekend and $1000

The title might be deceiving...I do have a 4 day weekend, I do not have $1000. I am excited about my 4 day weekend, I am excited to daydream about the $1000 Mandy gave me to blog about spending :)
So for the weekend, not too much planned yet...which is amazing, every weekend this summer has been packed and it's funny that this weekend, one that most people have something planned, we do not. But that is actually very nice! We are going to go to a bbq and visit our friends Jenny and Joe, which will be fun because we get to meet their new baby girl, Madeline Paige- they call her Maddi, and her birthday is the day before our Addie's. We got her the cutest little boots for the winter as a welcome present!
I'm sure the rest of the weekend will fill up and we'll have fun things to blog about on Tuesday!
As for the $1000...it's actually a lot more fun to dream about the $300 million whatever mega millions, only because there are lots of things I want that cost more than $1000, but I'll follow Mandy's rules :) Oooh, really hard because the purses I dream of...Marc and Chanel and Prada...they are all over my limit here. I could take it and buy new stuff for my living room, decorations and what not, but that's too practical. I suppose I would also buy a new coffee pot for our new kitchen....but once again too practical for me to dream about.. So, I would take $400 and buy some new fall clothes, I would take $200 and get some spa pampering, I would take $100 and take C and I to a nice dinner out, I would take the next $300 and split it between shoes and accesories. Now...if I win the mega millions over the weekend, you will be reading the blog I write from a beach somewhere....with my chanel purse next to me.

It's been so long!

So I was having issues getting on here! So finally I'm back! Quick updates- AM's bday was fun, we met gma for lunch and went shopping :) Then her bday party was a blast! The decorations were wonderful, the food was great, lots of friends and family came, and the rain held out until later on! But thank goodness for the tent, it kept us diehards dry well after AM went to bed! (even if the tent did happen to have a big W....thank you Tanya's dad and doc for that contribution)
Then AM and I joined my parents, my brother Mike and his fam, and my uncle in Port Townsend for a family reunion...where I spent 90 percent of the time in bed sick. And I must apologize to my sis-in-law who now has it :( Stomach bugs are NOT fun.
Luckily I recovered and C and I left AM with gma and papa and headed off to Yakima for a wedding and fun times with friends. And a very early departure, which luckily Tanya stayed up to help me pack (by helping I mean I laid in bed and she threw all my stuff in the bag :) and usher me out to the car in my pjs....I don't even think I opened my eyes from the bed to the car. Mind you, it was 5am and my 2am bedtime was a bit later than my usual 10:00! However, our kitchen cabinets look beautiful, thanks to my wonderful husband, and the kitchen is really coming together! Can't wait for everyone to see it!
Last but not least, yesterday was special for 3 people, happy anniversary to tan and dan (haven't seen that one in awhile! haha) and happy birthday to jazz! We had fun seeing her yesterday, and I had a glass of yummy champagne, ok 2.

So much help

So many people are helping me with AM's 1st bday party! It has just been overwhelming, the amount of things people are helping me with! Food, decorations, bringing things for me to borrow, all friends and family. It just means the world to me! I don't know how to say thank you enough...I just think AM's 1st bday is going to be absolutley wonderful because of all these wonderful people in our lives!
Now, hopefully the weather cooperates....anybody know anyone who can help with that...?

Home Again Home Again...

So I'm back home from vacation, back to work. We all had a wonderful time in Penticton! AM had fun playing in the sand, after a day of hesitation and wiping it off her girlie little hands. It was a great week, it went way too fast of course. I was happy that I only ended up working a half day yesterday because the fam I work for got stuck in SLC at the airport on their way home. It was bad for them, but great for me...I don't think I could have handled a whole day back!
Tomorrow is going to be busy running around and getting things for AM's 1st bday party! I am so excited, but I also cannot believe my little baby girl is turning 1! C and I are planning on taking her out for her first bday dinner on Friday. (after vaca she just loves eating grown up food!) I just love this stage she's at though....she is acting more and more like a little girl, her personality is shining through and you can see glimpses of the person she will become. Such a joy....such a fun time. I'm so happy I can spend it with her. We'll have to do some special stuff on Fri, besides shopping for party food :)

I lost the cat...

Oops. I accidentally let both cats out. Only one came back. I called the mom because I even told the babies that this day was going great, except for the cat. The mom said it was no big deal, that he's probably in the backyard hiding. But that small chance that he gets lost, or gets eaten...I will feel terrible! I will feel guilty everyday at work! I will be the nanny who lost the cat! Oops.
I am super excited about our vacation! My days off have been (and will be) crazy as I try to prepare our family to leave, but I enjoy being busy and running errands...if only it's not as hot as yesterday and I sweat unloading the car. I do not enjoy that at all.
On another note, during afternoon naps, I find myself enjoying TLC :) haha, Ten Years Younger...great show, although I just like to see how old people think they are. And once again I am watching Baby Story and Bringing Home Baby. It's like a flahback to last year at this time! I was obsessed with BHB...not so much BS because I was horrified of the actual birth process and I needed no visions in my head of crazy ladies on tv. Well now that I've done it, I can watch :) I just cannot believe AM is almost 1 though....wow.

Time Flies

I have realized this summer has flown by....I cannot believe that we leave for our annual Penticton trip in 5 days. This trip is the best! It is also kind of a close to summer. We go around the same time every year in August. I know there is still some summer left after, but it winds down, the sun leaves earlier...and fall comes, which we do love in our house...football season, and the slow switch to fall clothes :) (I love the changing of seasons!) Anyway, I'm getting ahead of myself.
The whole thing that brought this along was usually we are getting ready for our trip way ahead of time. I just realized this weekend that we were leaving next weekend! So, I pulled a bunch of clothes out for AM to pack. That's the extent of preparation so far. Since I have tomorrow off, I will be able to run some errands and get things we need. I was thinking now that it's not just us, does it just mean we are busier..? or is it just more consumed with someone else besides our own selves..we just don't have time to obsess about our vacation like usual...? So, Cory says the older we get the faster time flies. I think that makes sense because when I was little, summer was so long and vacations took forever to come...well our time will speed up more I guess, but soon AM will be at the age where her time will go by slow and she can obsess about summer vacations.

It's my Friday!

So, I think I'm going to like my new schedule. After 2 long days at the beginning of the week, Addie and I really enjoyed our day off yesterday. We got lots done around the house, we ran lots of errands, and we ended the day at a birthday dinner for my neice, Kayley. It was a late night for AM, but she did great and had lots of fun! Watching this little guy, it sure makes you realize how much more fun they are as they get more personality and can do things and have fun. I mean obviously it's different when they're yours, but still, now I understand what Cory always used to talk about. Anyway, off on a tangent there...I work today and then I have 3 days off and I'm very excited! Plans for this weekend...tomorrow AM is going to go to her (Friday) daycare since we were paid thru the month, just long enough for momma to get her hair done! And maybe throw in a pedicure :) Sat we have a baby shower for my cousin and then a going away party for friends. By Sunday...the house I cleaned yesterday will be a disaster and all the laundry will have piled up again...and the week starts over again!

She is growing up

First of all, today is going much better than yesterday-knock on wood. We've got through the morning, no real crying-almost done w/both naps, both feedings. Now...to keep AM entertained and not make too much noise so we don't wake him up...
She has been so good today. And taking care of him just makes me realize how she's not that much of a baby anymore. She actually listened to me this morning when I told her no, she didn't want to eat her baby food, but loved to sit on my lap and eat some of my muffin.
However, I know she's still a baby when she eats the muffin crumbs off the floor....oh well, she's trying :)

1st Day

Oh my goodness. This afternoon has already proven to be much better than this morning! The family I am nannying for was on vacation last week and the little guy is all off schedule. Needless to say it made for a fun morning of trying to get everyone accustomed to everything, AM and him with holding, feeding, sleeping, crying. It was a little crazy! Things are better now though, after both had 1st naps, feedings, AM down for her 2nd and after a little break from writing...I just got him down. Now maybe I have 15 minutes before AM wakes up and needs to eat. I think I may make it after all. And a bonus, Cory pointed out I may not need to go to the gym again because I've hardly eaten, I haven't sat, and during that hour of hell, I must have sweated off 5 lbs!
To do the list of 5 things, from memory I will try...
in my purse:
1. lip gloss
2. wallet
3. usually this phone (but obviously I'm using)
4. camera
5. sunglasses
in my car:
1. antibacterial
2. stroller
3. toys
4. glasses
5. wipes
in my fridge:
1. bottled water
2. diet coke
3. nectarines
4. lots of condiments
5. gatorade
(we have no kitchen otherwise we'd have some food I swear).
in my closet:
1. lots of shoes
2. clothes
3. purses
4. hangers
5. an old jewelry box
I think that's it!
And on a side note... Happy 3rd Anniversary to my wonderful husband!

Rainy Day

Today is just one of those rainy days you want to stay at home, in sweats, and watch tv, cuddle with the baby, the dogs, ok not so much the dogs- they are stinky. And they annoy me when it's raining because they do not want to go outside to go to the bathroom and I have to force them out. Ha...anyway, it's one of those days. I don't think it helps that I have only 2 days and 3 hours left at work, well probably less because I think we get to leave early for a drink tomorrow and Friday they will let me leave early because it's my last day and what possibly could I have to do? So, let's just say 2 days. It leaves me with no motivation whatsoever to work. I have been on myspace, email, blogs, read all the news and stories on MSN, and I went to get lunch. Which is obviously a big thing since I didn't feel like going out in the rain, but I didn't feel like working more.

Here is a picture, my first posted picture, of AM. This was at Target when my mom was with her, I went off to grab something...I come back and my mom has AM in her stroller, piled high with stuffed animals because my mom is trying to get AM to pick which one she likes best so she can buy it for her....and she's just laughing!

After narrowing it down with certain giggles and me taking many pictures in the middle of the store aisle....that bunny on the right is what we went home with :) (and looking at this, the doll on the left, I think she has one exactly like it that gma already got her..) Aren't gmas the best for spoiling? I am glad that AM has one to spoil her, it was my favorite thing when I was little and now I'm sure it is AM's too- especially by the way she smiles when gma is there to see her!

Excited

I just realized I can read other blogs and even post mine from my phone. I find this exciting because when I start nannying next week I will not fall off the face of the earth when it comes to keeping in touch with my friends on the computer! Yeah me! Although I'm not sure about pics yet....

Friends...and Posh Spice.

Yesterday evening I heard someone on the radio talking about how most women between the ages of like 25 and 35 (or something around that) have only had their current group of friends for 5 yrs. They said with all the changes you go through in life, people usually only keep their friends that long because your friends change as you do something new, like graduating college, getting married, having kids, moving for jobs, etc etc. I thought that was very sad for those people. I mean I am not still friends with everyone I grew up with (although I am with an important few), probably because we all went down the same path, but at least we are still friends. I am also the luckiest girl to have the friends I have from college. I think it doesn't happen for everyone, which I only recently realized that some people in our house did not graduate with a wonderful group that they still keep in touch with. But with our group, it's not like we just keep in touch, we do things together. And yes not all of us see each other all the time, but when things are planned with eachother, we are there and we have fun and it always makes me happy to think of times with them. I cannot imagine them trading me in for somebody else who is in the exact same moment as them, say, not wanting to have kids yet, or the few that aren't married yet, I don't think they'd say Lori, don't want to hang out with you because you're married. Nope, we all get together, with or without husbands, with or without boyfriends, with or without kids and we all know that everyone is welcome at anytime. Anyway, the story made me sad for all those other people out there that find new friends every 5 years. But it made me happy to know I have such a great group of girls I love and love to call my friends!
On another note....I never really was a fan of Victoria Beckham (Posh Spice), although I am a huge fan of her husband's [looks]. I thought she was too skinny, too mean looking, and why did she always wear sunglasses, you never see her eyes. And then I made Cory watch 'Coming to America' last night with me because I was so curious about her. And I have to tell you, I enjoyed it, I enjoyed her, and I wish it was an actual series instead of that one special. She was funny, she was sweet, she was silly and dumb sometimes, but I liked her! So, I will now apologize for any mean things I ever thought about her. I am now a fan.

Monday....

This weekend was fun- I had good times. Friday was a fun night out with Cory, Jazz, Tanya and Cassie. Beer (champagne) Gardens are always fun :) Cory and I at first felt old walking through there...lots of teenagers hanging out at the street fair (not the beer garden of course). I told him I felt extra old because that used to be me...very odd to be in the same area you grew up in and see that. But very fun that there is a tradition that we like to keep and go to these things. Jazz and I were saying when we were younger, we would stand outside of the beer gardens and all the old people we knew would be having so much fun inside. Now, we're the old people having fun.
Saturday I was a little tired....staying out til 11:30 really wipes a girl out. HAHA! Anyway, we had swim class which is always a good time, and then my mom and I took Addie to the street fair. We walked around, bought some things, ate some ice cream. It was hot, but it was fun. Oh, and to add to the old part from the night before....I went to one booth to buy a bottled water where the money went to charity and these two girls who thought they were so cool/hot (ha, didn't even mean to do that, but it works...), one was talking on the phone and she's like I saw so and so and so and so and he said.... I'm like....damn, I know those guys she's talking about. WEIRD. I've hung out with them, drank with them, and their older brothers. And I'm like I am so out of the loop..I am married and I have a kid...and who are these girls...? I'm definitely not one of them. So weird.
So, today I have all this anxiety and I couldn't figure out why. That's one crazy thing that I have figured out about myself..if I am feeling anxiety about something and I'm not sure why, I just have to think about it and once I pinpoint what is bothering me, it doesn't bother me as much. It's like that underlying terrible feeling isn't so terrible when it's no longer underlying. I think mine was going to the dentist today. I have come to hate those big needles in my mouth. I have had more fillings in the past couple months...ugh. I tell Cory it's because when I was pregnant the baby took all the stuff needed to make my teeth be okay. I read something along those lines a few times before, about getting all your teeth checked before you get prego because you are more likely to get gum disease or gingivitis or whatever. So anyway, that's why I think my teeth needed all these fillings...I mean who would get that many in a year or two since the last checkups? No way. But my anxiety was over for the most part when I was done with my appointment....until they told me on my way out that I have to come back one more time. Oh no.

So I'm back

Reading T's new blog has got me remotivated to write. However, hers and Mandy's have wonderful pictures that I just haven't gotten to yet. And now with my last week of work coming quickly, I honestly don't know how much I'll be on the computer.

Nannying will be fun, and busy! I will have the two little ones to watch, cuddle, and chase after ....well soon AM will be walking and I will be chasing! Fun times :) I am excited though, very excited. I look forward to the sunny days of summer out in the backyard. I look forward to singing paddy cake over and over like we did at the ranch (although I had Tanya to sing half of them :) and I look forward to my other two days off during the week to get some things done, like laundry, errands, cleaning the bathroom, and watching AM grow. I am excited...did I mention that already?

I will miss the socialization with people I work with, but am I broken up over it..nope. I have my friends that I will see, that I will make plans with, and honestly, I won't feel bad leaving AM at night to go out once in awhile...which will be nice. Like this morning, I woke up at 3:45 am...and then I laid there all morning wide awake thinking about how I made plans for this evening and how I don't want to leave her and I should cancel. Of course my mom makes me feel better (probably because her real motive was she gets to babysit) by saying I don't usually get to do things like this so I should go and have fun. So, I feel better....plus I made Jasmine not back out last night, so we have plans :)

Anyway, it's Friday...it's not sunny, it's stormy...I'm waiting for the sun to come out to motivate me for fun times to come! Enjoy the weekend~

Is it Friday yet?

For the past few weeks I have thought Thursday was Friday. So on Friday I am in a bad mood when I should be in a good mood. Make sense?
Today is beautiful outside, but I feel down. Maybe it's because C was gone last night and even though I thought I would enjoy having the remote and not watching hockey...I missed him and I went to sleep way later than usual so I think that is part of me feeling down today. I am tired!
I also didn't have any coffee this morning....so I finally drank a diet coke and hopefully that picks me up for the afternoon!

Day 2

I remembered to come back! 2 things I am thinking about today- I am very excited for this summer and all the fun things we get to plan with the babe. It is her first summer, her first 4th of July (which I am very excited about b/c we are going out of town with friends and it will be so fun!), her first trip to Penticton. She has 4 cute swimsuits and we start waterbabies on the 19th! I am just really looking forward to all these things with her :)

The second thing I am thinking about: we (me and the babe) met some girlfriends at a place yesterday after work and had a glass of wine (not AM of course). The babe did sooo well sitting in her highchair and just smiling and enjoying herself, she even let Carrie hold her! :) Anyway, my thoughts on this nice afternoon, drinking a good glass of wine, the sun outside and good friends inside- it made me happy that we are growing up and these are small things that are fun for us to do. It used to be so difficult to plan a small get together like that, but as I grow up, especially with the baby, it is nice to be able to have a monthly (hopefully we keep it up) plan to see each other casually when we can. It just cheered me up yesterday.

Okay, a third thought that makes me happy but anxious I suppose....I told Carrie that I had told the husband that I want to have another baby. I don't know what it is, I think because at this time last year I was pregnant and the weather and everything just brings back those feelings of happiness and anxiously awaiting the unknown (however it would not be unknown the next time!). And with Jenny being pregnant, she is going through the same motions exactly a year later, with her due date so close to mine of last year. So I think of all those thoughts that were going through my head last year and it being really exciting. I sometimes think AM is the only baby I ever want or need, but then I have issues with the thought of an only child (sorry to those that are, but I think she needs a sibling). And of course they are lots of work, but they give oh so much joy at the same time. So, I think I am ready. Not of course right this second...but my mind is made up, I am going to have a second baby. Now....to just talk C into it :) HAHA

I was about to post this, but saved a draft first. I then was on MSNBC and found a story that made me soooo sad. A vegan couple tried to feed their baby in that lifestyle and they killed their 6 week old. He (I think) was born at home and they only fed him soy milk and apple juice...he only weighed 3 1/2 pounds and he died from malnutrition. They got sentenced to life in prison. I am happy about that. Stupid parents. I remember having problems breast feeding AM when she was born and I was scared everyday I was starving her, we had to get her weighed at the dr a bunch of times and I gave her formula in the process b/c I was so worried I wasn't giving her enough. How can parents watch their newborn waste away and just go on with applejuice???? It just blows my mind. That story really made me mad, and so sad.

My first day

This is my first day blogging. Which I might say I do not so much like the word blog, however I have found myself really enjoying the reading of our friend Mandy's blog. Funny thing is...I don't think she even knows I read it, I don't ever post comments. But now that I am back to work (1 month now), it is a nice thing to read in the afternoon. I feel like I know all about what's going on and it is so cute to see pictures of her little girls and watch them grow up.

So, yes, back to work. I am having thoughts everyday about being with the babe. I miss her lots and worry about daycare and stress about not being there and wish we could win the lottery and I could have her with me all the time. But then I also think of how she's getting to socialize and play, which she loves. And I think it's good for her too. My big wish would be to work part time, but mom can't retire to watch her yet, so full time it is. For those of you who have never paid for daycare in Seattle/Eastside...not so cheap, and part time work with part time daycare is impossible.

Anyway, I think this blog thing will be fun...hopefully I keep up with it! And I think I'll send it to Mandy so she can read about our family without me even knowing :)