oh the frustrations

So we had AM's preschool church service, bouncy house, picnic yesterday morning- which was very nice. The people were nice- we enjoyed it. Since we were right by our new house we wanted to drive by so we could peek in and see how far they'd come. I peek in 1st while C waits in the car w/the kids. It looks painted inside, doors on, go around see the trim...hmm looks different. See the cabinets are in the kitchen (mind you this is where all the delays supposedly came from)...hmm not good. I go to the car-C, hmmm, maybe it's just me, but the cabinets, hmm- well you look at them. He comes back, uh yeah- trim is wrong, and the cabinets look like 1980 ugly oak cabinets, oh like the ones in our ghetto apt we're in. Really??? We bought this house because the finishes were nice! We got a spec sheet telling us what would go in. We were told it would look like the other houses we had gone in that were finished. Obviously since the builder is going out of business or whatever- they don't care and are trying to save a buck. Well they either cost themselves more or they lost us- we're not buying a big gorgeous house with crappy finishes inside! And after all we've been through waiting for this house. So frustrating, disheartening, and really really stressful. C is going to go there today to see if he can walk through and see everything. We are also going to look at a few houses today-we need some backups. Wish us luck!

I must say thank you!

I want to say thank you to MB for totally listening :) even though it may seem as I complain on here (which I have the tendency of doing a lot lately) it is because I need to vent! I can only vent to my mother for so long, and she has a lot to complain about with my dad so my ears are open for her too :) Anyway, this is just a nice way for me to talk about my frustrations! So MB- I am definitely going to check out MOPS (I have thought about looking into it for a long time) as soon as we move into our house. I swear there are so many things I can't wait to get settled into when we finally move- it will be like finally starting our life! This building delay has caused more headaches than I ever would have thought! Down to finding new drs, a new dentist, all that fun stuff! Living in Puyallup has gotten us close enough to at least get AM started in her activities for the school year-she starts preschool and ballet/tumbling both in mid-Sept. We have our first preschool blastoff this Sun-church and then picnic, bouncy-house, fun times. So at least we'll start to meet some people near our new community. Even though I'll be driving 25 min to get to all these things until we move- when it will then be like 7 minutes if that! I am very excited to get moved in and settled. Living in this apt is fine but it's crap. The kids seem to be doing great but I think that's honestly because the one constant thing they have is me! Not to sound all self centered or anything :) Haha, being a mom, self centered is the farthest thing from the truth, or reality, but I swear staying home with my kids may drive me crazy somedays but I can't imagine having them be anywhere else, or me being anywhere else. And I do thank my husband for working so hard that we can do this.
I promise I will try to blog more about happy things rather than just to complain! I gotta tell myself things could be worse- which a lot of people keep telling me lately...
This comes up because we finally got an offer on our rental- we will be lucky if we don't have to bring money to closing. I swear we are starting all over again, real estate was once a "oh you can't go wrong investing in real estate" to a piece of crap market. All the money we made when we sold our 1st house is gone, dumped into our house we just sold (with a very small amt of $ in our pockets-and will be going into new house) and this rental which will leave us behind in all reality. But as everyone says, it could be worse, we could have been like a huge part of the country and lost our homes, gone into foreclosure or worse. We have't, we will be better off in some ways- less in debt for not having 1 1/2 houses, we will have a smaller mortgage on our new house, and we will be living in a gorgeous huge new house and starting life in a new community with our beautiful children. Weird, maybe the rain has washed away all my complaints...haha, I won't be so certain about that, C hasn't woken up yet and I'm sure he'll be in a bad mood...could probably put $ on it- and that may put a damper on my happy thoughts. Alright I'm signing off before I talk myself into being irritated :) thanks for listening ya'll-til next time!
Something random- thank goodness for crayola color wonder markers, my kids color on everything and these don't work on anything but their own paper (which they use much less than other surfaces)- so AM was just coloring on my sweatshirt and I said A-stop coloring on me, she goes "I'm not coloring, you have a stain". Obviously mommy likes to use the tide stick :) HA!

jeez

Okay so I swear these past two days have been weird. In my head, emotions, you'd swear I was prego and hormonal- which I am NOT! C has driven me crazy- I have seen his whiny 5 yr old come out (who is more annoying than an actual whiny 5 yo b/c he is a grown man & I can't picture some of the other men I know actually acting like that). I have had too many things come back into my mind- maybe I shouldn't check facebook anymore. Exes- cute, happy, newly married (and I do mean exes- as in plural). Too many to pop in my head in one weekend. Very good thing I'm not also reading Twilight right now! I put that on hiatis (sp?) For now since I get so obsessed. Another thing that has been in my head-a lost friend, and I get irritated that she cares less for me than another friend who actually dumped her. Fine- I keep telling myself screw it, but obviously since it bothers me, there's a reason. Whatever-maybe it's she was willing to throw us away and willing to try and fight for the other. Guess life just goes on. Friendship seems to be something that is not very prevalent (sp?) in my life. Guess you could argue it's my fault. Guess you could argue it's the lifestyle-mom all the time-I live. Guess you could say it's just how things end up. Who knows, but I miss my girls. Mostly PB, KA, TS, and yeah- pretty much the 3 of you make me smile, laugh, enjoy life, and I wish we could get together for a very fun time! So that's what I wish- I need some girlfriend time. Call me up.
Oh, and happy anniversary T! Wish u many more yrs of happiness!

single mom

Seriously, I feel like one. Between C working nights again the past few weeks and us only having him around a few hours from the time he wakes up until he leaves- then he worked yesterday day and went to sleep early on the couch- after I cooked, cleaned up, gave the kids a bath, pjs, and put them to bed. He then got up today and left by 6:15 and I get a call saying he also has to go to the night job again tonight b/c the fire alarm guy will be there. So the $ will be good, overtime is nice. Watching the kids all day everyday and night is not so much fun. I get exhausted. The up side to it- I don't have to watch sports tonight :) haha
However there are a million things I'd love to get done or do w/o the kids- but that will never happen. I have to face the fact that that's not my life, I don't often get a break. And now that we live far from my parents there is not even a chance to drop them off for an hour to do something real quick by myself. Oh well...maybe when we move into our new house we'll eventually find someone who likes to babysit once in awhile.
I seriously miss my kids lots when I am away from them, but jeez, breaks are nice. A good thing about summer coming to an end is they are already starting to go to bed earlier since it's not light til 10pm! So I can get a quick break in before I go to sleep myself. Last night though-ugh, they both woke up, it was a long night of little sleep!
Alright back to the kiddies!

Partay

So the big day is done once again! I am the last one standing :) haha TC did not nap- super tired little boy went to bed at 7:15. We are staying at gma's again tonite, but w/C too (doesn't have to work). C went to sleep on couch after lots of leftovers and beers. I then got AM to go to sleep in my parents bed (so we wouldn't wake up the babe), and now I am sitting on the couch with my pink plastic cup of wine happy that the party was so good, but kind of sad for myself since I have nobody to hang out with! My parents left at 6:30 and still aren't back- at 9:30- so I'm all alone! Well with the passed out husband, kids, and dogs. I am very happy the sun came out, very happy C's fam came, very happy my oldest bro called in sick so he could be here today! But sad that None of my fam came, but very happy that C's fam is mine and they were all almost here. Very happy all the kids had fun. Very happy my little girl had a great bday party. And happy that Jenny (and Maddi), Portia and Kyle were my friends that made it and I am so thankful to them for being such great friends. Not that others don't know, but it came up today about not having much of a social life...those w/kids may know this. Anyway, having your kids party is an excuse to have A party. So I thank those that care enough to come b/c it really means a lot to show up and let me have a little fun too! So thanks for the fun day and thanks to everyone for making my princess's ballerina birthday the best ever!

vacation and another love story

So I was just going to get on here and talk about our great family reunion/annual trip with C's fam. To check out my drunk fun night with all the cousins- I think you can see the pics our cousin posted/tagged me on my facebook. Hiillaarrrious! It was a night to remember....or forget :) haha
Anyway- I got the kids to bed and sat to flip through some channels, nothin on, and then...the Notebook. What a love story! I should stop watching but I already missed the heartbreak and wonderful rain kiss, and I don't think I'll be able to stay up for the repeat on next to see those parts again- so I should be able to watch without going crazy. And just enjoy my time watching Ryan Goesling be hot ;)
So my little man is walking all over the place and his shoes were too small so he spent half our vacation shoeless! So today we took him and bought some real little tennis shoes and some adorable brown shoes so he's ready to go! He also got his first haircut over vacation and looks like an adorable little boy (and I spike it so it's absolutely the cutest thing you've ever seen).
AM on vacation was so cute and fun- she had a blast with all her cousins. She loved going on the boat and yelling faster! She even learned thumbs up to tell Uncle Brad to make the boat go even faster. But even crazier-my little daredevil went tubing...3 times! Once real slow by herself, second time with her older cousin, and third time with her daddy and they went fast! I think I stopped breathing I was so nervous!
Anyway she's a crazy girl and I swear she has no fear! I love her to pieces! And I'm super excited and nervous for her to start preschool...I cannot believe my baby girl will be 3 next week. Time sure flies!
Okay enough babbling- time to watch the end of the lovestory!

not so bad I promise

After I got MBs comment this am, I reread what I blogged last night- it's not as bad as it sounds. I really think the opposite of what it sounded like- in terms of the apt. It's not so bad, and it has helped C and I- jeez we fought constantly living at my brother's, but we haven't really fought at all here. Of course I feel like we fight when he is in a bad mood & it rubs off on me and it's a huge cycle. He then says I blame him& it's all his fault. I guess I wouldn't say that except it seems to be true. Anyway, off on a tangent there :) who can really analyze spousal arguments!? Anyway, the apt is not so bad. It's a little WT, but I usually just end up walking the dogs in our pjs so we fit right in :) haha
As for Edward- I do know he's a fantasy. Truly a fantasy. And honestly- funny story here- there was this one couple I knew once who I envied- it was when C and I hit our rough patch at 1 yr- they had 2 kids, but they found babysitters to go out, they seemed madly in love, couldn't wait to get home (know what I mean)- and then I heard a couple yrs ago- they got a divorce b/c he said he'd been bi and she left him and he went to do his thing!?!? Who would have ever thought? Insane! So I realized then that things aren't always as they seem. However I do feel like there are people out there w/their "soulmates", but I am just a hopeless romantic. And as I've said before- movies and books make me crazy. Probably because they bring my hopeless romantic side to the top and I get loopy. Anyway, I'm not depressed and I don't feel all sorry for myself, I'm not going to get a divorce, I love my kids more than anything (even when AM is a bully to her brother:) and I am definitely excited to move to our new house and get some normalness back into our lives. But I will still watch and read twilight because dreaming never hurt anyone...well maybe in my case it does! Haha

random thoughts

Ugh. I feel huge. I need to start working out again. I live in a WT apartment. I just saw a girl walking with her son who was wearing a dirty tshirt, socks (walking on the sidewalk and thru the parking lot in just socks), and a diaper that was so full it was hanging almost to his knees. I really wanted to offer a clean diaper. It was sad-poor baby. My daughter is a big bully to her brother...she takes everything away from him and is mean to him about everything else. (She can be sweet about 15% of the time). I really want to go on vacation but I hate that I'll be all fat-but can't lose 50 pounds in 2 days so nothing I can do about that. I am sick of Madagascar. I am getting obsessed with Twilight again- not to the extent of last go round (yet), but after reading the series and then watching the movie 3 times, I started the 1st one over again. It took me a little bit to get into it again, but not too much...I am once again in love with Edward. Once again dreaming of the perfect love, the perfect soulmate. Ahh, to dream. Not to say that just moving to this apt has not totally helped my marriage already, because it has, but still (even though I love my husband) he's no Edward. I always laugh when I have thought this before-and actually have quoted this because it's so true- but who would ever think I'd quote Miley Cyrus! But I read once she didn't have the whole Rob Pattison obsession like every other girl in America, because they needed to realize they weren't in love with Rob, they were in love with Edward. And then I also point out- it could easily be Rob...he's tall, hot, and he has a British accent...that says it all. So screw you Miley! Haha.Anyway, enough of my fantasies! We are headed up to Seattle for the first time since living down here tomorrow. Visiting grandmama, going to trader joes, my brother's, and then to my parents for dinner. I'll have to pack up the kids, including pjs because it will probably be somewhat late. I'll have to plan on leaving around bedtime or something so they don't sleep on the way home & then not again when we get home. Ah-such planning for something so simple! That's what you get when you move far away!
Alright, enough craziness- time for wine and kids bedtime soon! Night.

Puyallup

Okay so here we are! Night 3 in our apt in Puyallup! It's crazy...if you would have asked me where I'd be right now-it would have never been here! But it's nice enough, amazing that when something is temporary it's okay, but I would never be able to live like this forever! 2 kids, 2 dogs & us in a 2 bdrm apt. Up sides to it- we have our own space and a washer/dryer that works. Also a pool that we've been to once which is fun to take the kids to, but in all reality is not relaxing when you have 2 little ones that can't swim by themselves. I wish I could go lay by the pool w/ a book or magazine and get a tan, but hey life isn't like that. Anyway, we did get a dvd player (luckily we had our smaller tv w/us at my brother's) today since cable isn't being hooked up til thurs & c has to work nights all week- we got a couple dvds for $3.99 at best buy. Have a feeling I'll come to like madagascar and over the hedge :) So life isn't so bad, the kids seem happy and adjust so well to our crazy lives over the past couple months! You just gotta love them for understanding life is ok as long as we're all together. But jeez, when we move into our house- it's going to be like living in a mansion! I don't think any of us will know what to do with ourselves! Luckily fri we go on our annual vaca with C's fam and I am so looking forward to that, it's the most fun! And it will be 4 nights of yummy food, drinking, laughing, and family! What more could you ask for? I'm so excited. And even more excited that we're switching back to Penticton next year so it will be a week of even more fun. And the kids will be older which is even better for up there. Anyway, life is just peachy and things can only get better huh? Oh- don't know if I ever mentioned Raven...2 surgeries. Anyway- 2nd one sooo much better. Realllllly irritated they didn't do that the 1st time and save us half the money. Seriously I think they just wanted twice the $ jack offs. But we're happy she's better! Nothing we can do now. Guess that's it for now, I'll be back soon-with more exciting tales of apartment life in puyallup!