not so bad I promise

After I got MBs comment this am, I reread what I blogged last night- it's not as bad as it sounds. I really think the opposite of what it sounded like- in terms of the apt. It's not so bad, and it has helped C and I- jeez we fought constantly living at my brother's, but we haven't really fought at all here. Of course I feel like we fight when he is in a bad mood & it rubs off on me and it's a huge cycle. He then says I blame him& it's all his fault. I guess I wouldn't say that except it seems to be true. Anyway, off on a tangent there :) who can really analyze spousal arguments!? Anyway, the apt is not so bad. It's a little WT, but I usually just end up walking the dogs in our pjs so we fit right in :) haha
As for Edward- I do know he's a fantasy. Truly a fantasy. And honestly- funny story here- there was this one couple I knew once who I envied- it was when C and I hit our rough patch at 1 yr- they had 2 kids, but they found babysitters to go out, they seemed madly in love, couldn't wait to get home (know what I mean)- and then I heard a couple yrs ago- they got a divorce b/c he said he'd been bi and she left him and he went to do his thing!?!? Who would have ever thought? Insane! So I realized then that things aren't always as they seem. However I do feel like there are people out there w/their "soulmates", but I am just a hopeless romantic. And as I've said before- movies and books make me crazy. Probably because they bring my hopeless romantic side to the top and I get loopy. Anyway, I'm not depressed and I don't feel all sorry for myself, I'm not going to get a divorce, I love my kids more than anything (even when AM is a bully to her brother:) and I am definitely excited to move to our new house and get some normalness back into our lives. But I will still watch and read twilight because dreaming never hurt anyone...well maybe in my case it does! Haha