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A couple random pics....

Wow, it's been one of those blogging in my head type of few weeks...I swear I am constantly thinking of things and then I sit down here and nothing. We are ready for Christmas. I got most of my shopping all done. I have a few gift cards left to get, but all in all we're ready. The kids are too spoiled and I need to stop adding things to their pile....

We had a housewarming with C's fam the weekend after Thanksgiving, it was really nice and fun- they brought all the food, we had a great brunch and they all chipped in and got us a gorgeous set of stainless steel pans. We originally got the teflon kind after our wedding and they are all crappy. Love the new ones!

We had an openhouse this Saturday for my extended family and friends. No friends came of mine. That was nice. C's oldest and best friend came, they live in Olympia so not too far for them to visit, it was great seeing and visiting with them. Most of my family that came I don't get to see much so it was nice catching up. One huge mishap that I still almost hyperventilate when I think about (and see..) my cousin's kids put a smash/dent in one of our rounded corners in the drywall...right in the main part of the house/entryway to the dining room. Very upset about it. So, the party was nice, but those little heathons cost us a bunch of money (we have yet to get the bid) that was not quite worth the party. And the best part, no apologies, or even admissions I guess you could say, from the cousin. Of course that's a given when you let your kids run wildly rampant in someone's new house.....I mean out of control. (and no, she doesn't read this)

We had AM's first Christmas program last night, my parents came down and we got to see her sing a bunch of cute Christmas songs and then we all went to dinner. She was soooo cute.

This is the ornament she got to open from her preschool teachers after the show. All the kids got them and a candycane.

It's been nice, my mom has had some Mondays off so we get to hang out and do some things. We met at Bell Sq today because I had to do a couple things, but I woke up at 3:45am this morning with AM first for potty and then crawling in bed with me, then C got up, so we were awake, then TC woke up crying, so I got him in bed with us. After we all got in bed I laid there with TC flopping all over me and AM having to be RIGHT next to me and I listened to C get ready and leave for work. I of course did not fall asleep until right before I had to get up to take AM to the dr. I am exhausted. Then we drove on the ice to the dr, then grocery shopping, then to meet my mom. I drank a grande latte and had 1 1/2 diet cokes today and I'm still ready to pass out. So I drank a beer which tasted good, but I am sleepy! Hopefully the kids sleep good tonight. They have been sleeping horribly lately, which in turn makes me sleep horribly... I think it has to do with so much going on...with the holidays we're always busy and I think they get all off their schedule! Only a couple more weeks! But I love Christmas! I told C last night it feels weird that Christmas seemed so far away, now it's almost here but I don't even know if I'm in the mood for sure yet. Although it will be here fast ( I cannot believe 10 days??) and I better be in the mood or it will be gone!

One thing I am very excited about is C and I decided instead of any big presents for each other this year, we are going to stay at the Westin in Bellevue on the 2nd while grandma babysits. We are going to go out for drinks and a nice dinner, maybe do a little shopping. That will be our present to each other. I think it sounds very fun and I am really looking forward to it! Maybe it will become a tradition!

Christmas and Thanksgiving

So I got on the computer to start writing my Christmas letter....I feel unmotivated to do this. I don't know why....I usually really enjoy writing the letter. I am always excited for Christmas cards (and I am, but more just the picture card...finally found the perfect picture and ordered them yesterday!) but for some reason I am just not feeling the letter part right now. I guess that means don't sit and write it today because it would probably not sound too cheery! Weird.

Anyway, I am excited for Thanksgiving. I love getting together with family and shopping the day after with my mom. This year I told C he is keeping TC home with him.....sorry dad, no day off this year! However, how AM has acted the past 3 times I have taken her to a store....I am nervous for her joining us as well. She has thrown a screaming fit and been dragged out of the store the past 3 times....the first I don't remember, the second was Target and the third was the mall. So embarrassing. We'll see how Friday goes.



Saturday we have pictures for the kids. I am really excited about this. I've put it off for way too long. I was going to get some over the summer, in between TC turning 1 and AM turning 3. Now it will have to be more of a 1 1/2 and almost 3 1/2.....oops. Oh well, they will be cute. I am going to laugh though if TC makes his usual face when I get the camera out and say "Cheeeeese". Here it is.... The first one is a perfect recap. Sometimes he does keep his eyes open, but he smooshes his face and nose up. Don't worry I happen to get one with him not so scrunched up for the Christmas Card pic :) Let's hope he is somewhat normal for the picture people.

Hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving! I will try to motivate myself for letter writing.....

Much better week!

So this week was 100x better than last week. Jeez, I don't know if I could've handled another one, so it was good. Plus it flew by, which I was not expecting! Tonight is New Moon. SOOOO EXICTED! I can't even believe we are going to see it :) And when I say we....it's C's 22 yr old cousin, her boyfriend and me and thank goodness Jenny! I would be such an old third wheel if Jenny wasn't going with us :) So, I bought a bottle of wine called Old Moon a long time ago when I was first reading the Twilight series and I was saving it for when New Moon came out. I can't believe it's here and I get to open the bottle tonight for a glass before we go! FUN!

I am also glad this came so close to the holidays because I am ready for the holidays, but I get really excited for them and I don't like waiting for them to get here. So it was something to look forward to before Thanksgiving came, which will now be here in record time.

I also LOVE VAMPIRE DIARIES. Seriously...this blog post will be my ode to the teenager in me :)

(I hate this, but just in case I thought it was the polite thing to do)

SPOILER ALERT ahhahaha

Last weekend I spent every spare second watching every Vampire Diaries episode online in order. Luckily I didn't get a virus because there were some pretty shady websites that had the shows on there. Anyway, I watched them all, even the more recent ones I had seen. So I was all caught up for last night which was an awesome episode because I was very excited when she said she loved him and they did it :) HAHA But then she left and I was like stupid girl. I can't wait to see what will happen next. Obviously Stefan will save her, or maybe Damon. Whom I like a lot...he is fun, bad but fun.

Okay, should I even bore you with the old person life stuff I have going on? Hmmm, not much there anyway....just the usual, married, housework, kids, kid stuff. And C laughs because I love teenage vampire love stories.....sometimes it's just a lot more interesting than real life :)

This weekend is going to be a good one- tonight the move, OBVIOUSLY. Tomorrow we are getting our decorations out and trying to get started since we are having C's fam over on the 29th for a housewarming. We would usually decorate that weekend, so we have to get started now...I'm sure it won't take long. We have this huge house now and hardly any decorations at all.

Then C is going out with his brother and his friends to see cousin Kasey's fight, which last time was soooo much fun, but very expensive, so we thought just one of us could go this time. And obviously I'm not going to a fight by myself :) Although I'm sure I could get into some fun trouble, but I'll let C do that. The boys are not driving, luckily responsible older brother got them a hotel and a car service so I don't have to stress about C being dumb. He would kill me for writing that, but I don't care. I hate stressing about drunk drivers out there, especially if I may know them. Anyway, so I will be here with the kids and I invited grandma down for the night so we'll have a fun afternoon/evening at home. It sounds good to me.

And then the short week with the holidays starting and I'm excited. I really love the holidays...seriously my favorite time. Until summer comes, which I am very ready for by the time the yucky winter is driving me crazy.

Okay, not that I need it, but going to pour myself another cup of coffee....the movie isn't until 10....which is bedtime for me.....so I will be having some caffeine throughout the day I think.

Have a good day and wonderful weekend.

Better

It was 5 minutes of sadness, but life will be normal again. I'm okay, just needed to vent-thanks cyberspace for listening :)

Off to make lunch for the kiddies. They are so cute and I love them and that makes me happy.

Finally need to talk

It's been awhile since I've been on here. I think about it often but of course life takes over and I don't have time to talk about it, any spare second I would rather spend not thinking about all my life's issues. I got on here because I was at my computer and then I get a call back from my husband. So to start out this week has been very hard with the kids.....I'm sure part of it is because I'm pms-ing and I have been very irritable and then of course it's so frustrating I have cried like 3 times. I have been telling myself every night I need more patience, I need to be better the next day. Mind you my 3 yr old has been waking up whining, whining all day, all night, about everything. Everything else is a fight-whether it's getting dressed (even though it was her idea to get dressed at that exact minute, then she doesn't want to actually do it when you're there with the clothes....ugh), brushing teeth, hair, going to the bathroom even was a fight! So beyond that, the fighting, crying, screaming, I woke up today hoping it would be better. It was. It started out pretty good, the kids have been getting along for the most part (minus a few small fights which is hardly anything compared). I was happy it was Friday, I was thinking for the first time all week, maybe C will come home in a good mood because it's been a lot of silent dinners. I chalk it up to him being stressed at work and me at home. He gets home says things I think are mean. Then we're both annoyed and go to bed. It's been a great week. So, today I'm thinking great, we can enjoy the evening, we had talked about going out to dinner. Then he calls me and says he is going out for a beer after work. I say go ahead, it's no big deal. I mean in all reality he never does this, so it's good, go, have a good time. See you later. But on the other hand I am so sad. I am lonely and it's been a really rough week and I thought maybe we could all go out and do something and here I am now stuck with the fact that I will be home by myself with the kids for even longer than normal. I'm miserable now, I'm crying. I'm sad. I need something. I don't know what. I'm glad my kids are being good because it is making my life easier. But I'm sure I spoke too soon. And I'm sure everything will get better. My day will look up, or at least my weekend will..at some point.

UGH

is all I can say about selling our rental. The numbers were done wrong going into the sale and we now have to go to closing with money. We have to PAY to get rid of the f-ing house. Not only should we have sold it when we were done remodeling it, we should have never got into it in the first place. Who would have known everyone saying "real estate is always a wise investment" was full of crap in the future we now live in. It was like flushing a big chunk of our time, money, savings, money, did I mention money and time? down the f-ing toilet. It kills me. Now we have started all over again, we got this gorgeous house but with nothing left, none of the money the past 2 houses have given us. It's like we're 24 again. Crappy. So, enough of my ranting and raving about that. I had to get on here and say it because it just causes me too much stress to talk to others, mainly because we owned the stupid house with family. Word to the wise-never do that either.
So, gotta get ready to go sign the papers, get rid of the money pit, and at least not have to dump any more of our money into it. I am so done!

hmm

So I'm thinking we need another economy stimulus check, or is it tax return time yet? Hmmm. I think once we get settled I'm going to post on craigslist for pt nanny again. However this time I would have it at my house. We'll see, I know in WS it would have got swooped up once again b/c there is little daycare options. I'm not sure how it is down here, but I'll try it anyway- I could use a little extra $ so I have less stress in my life :) I think I can handle one more little one now that mine are older and we have plenty of room for it. Hmm, sounds like a plan. Still have a ways to go though...lots of unpacking left to do!
I am really enjoying living close to JK. I know she's on mat leave and won't always be around during the days, but I am enjoying seeing her. In WS I never saw friends-only random moms at the park!
Okay TC is going to have to get dragged from his nap in the carseat, gotta go in and get AM from school...gosh where are the good old days where you could let your kid sleep in the car while you ran in?! Just kidding!

ahhh

Soooo happy. My house is a dream. It's perfect. It's everything I've always wanted. I think short of being a millionaire and buying any house in the world-this is my dream house. I wouldn't mind winning even a smaller amount of $ in a lottery so I could decorate it though....
But seriously, I LOVE IT!
We spent yesterday starting to unpack boxes, hang up clothes, and C put beds together, I washed bedding, kids got baths last night and in their cozy beds! C and I finally got showers late and into the guest room (our bed from old house), which now seems like the most comfortable bed in the world after 4 months of hideabed with springs in my leg, couches, and a mattress on the floor. Ahhhh. It was so nice! Our bedroom set gets delivered today, but we still have to get our mattress. A king size bed??? It's going to be like living in a hotel!
The dogs are doing pretty good, no more issues, they love outside, they (and we) love the extra room so it doesn't feel like they are at our feet constantly.
AM spent 95% of her day playing in the playroom in her princess dress up clothes baking daddy's birthday cake in her kitchen. TC runs around with a toy from here, a toy from there. The cable guy got the tv set up in the play/bonus room so they got to watch the Backyardigans and they were happy.
Funny I just realized I have internet and my computer set up in the next room and I forgot so I'm on my blackberry.
I have a ton to do today...wow. But I sat down with a cup of coffee and eneded up watching the last half hour of michael moore's sicko. Have you seen that? I was crying so hard. Go cuba! Their healthcare?! Amazing. And they were so nice to everyone...it really makes you wonder about our country, and not country as in the USA, as a patriotic wonderful place, but as I think maybe things are ran by greedy corporations in one way or another. I'd like to think things will change someday, especially as someone who had kidney stones zapped and I have a HUGE hospital bill that I have arranged payments on and still don't know how that's going to work out- can you imagine if something really bad happened to us, someone, anyone? And we have fairly good insurance! Horrible.
Anyway, I'm sure I'll be thinking about that movie now all day.
Off to unpack..

NEW HOUSE!

Okay so we're all moved in. We are nowhere near unpacked. After having stuff in storage for 4 months, living in a basement for 2 and then an apartment for 2, we had crap all over it seemed. We got it all in-about 12 hrs of moving since we didn't get a bunch of people- thank goodness Kasey (C's cousin) is always a wonderful strong helper! He told us we have to stay put now :) we are! No worries!
Anyway, Raven...oh Raven. The day before yesterday she got into the pantry at the apt (yes they have figured out how to open the pantry) and ate at least one whole box of dog bones. Seriously. She pooped. And then C took her out and she pooped again. In the morning she pooped 3 times! Then today we leave them at the apt for 6 hrs while we move some stuff. I go back and she pooped inside...then I take her out-dia-scooby. (You may wonder why I call it that, no clue, that's what c and I have nicknamed diah...I can't stand the word so maybe that's why). Anyway, then she does it again on the deck at the apt while we're loading everything from there. We get to our new house and c let's her outside, and then he has to leave. Why he doesn't leave her outside I have no clue- I was prepared to leave her out there all night until she is better and has had a bath. Of course C is a little more...loving?tolerant?a sucker? towards the dogs. So I have to put the kids to bed. I am upstairs for literally 15 minutes and the dogs are up there on and off for 13 of those minutes. I go downstairs and Raven dia-scoobied on my dining room carpet. Are you f-ing kidding me??? I put her @$$ outside and cleaned up while I swore lots. I surprised myself by letting her back in the house way sooner than I thought. I told her she better not move from her bed at all. And then I spent 20 minutes looking for the wine opener. I am now sitting here drinking a glass of wine and I'm happy. Luckily I bought myself a couple bath & body works candles and I lit one and it smells sooo good. Much better than stupid dogs and their crap.
So on facebook I said I hope I don't have to kill her...I didn't. I also decided to save the whole story for my friends that know all the blog details of my life.
Tomorrow is C's bday. Happy birthday hon! And tomorrow cable and internet are being hooked up so hopefully I can start posting pics again!
Oh and we probably will not be able to sleep on anything but a couch tonight...cannot wait until our house is put together! It's so beautiful!
Thanks for listening to me be imaptient for the past few months! Let me know if u wanna come visit!!!

is it sat yet?

Seriously...the past few weeks have flown by and even this week hasn't been super slow, but it could have literally taken 2 months to get through these past 2 days. Or maybe it's because we've gone without a house since JUNE! How many months is that? We're getting close to 4...I want my house! I want this dang thing to close, which is taking forever!!! We had been told Thurs was good, but then they stuck to the original purchase and sale. This time we're not waiting on the house-it's done! We're waiting on the mortgage crap. How annoying! They've only had our stuff since April! You would think this could move along! Anyway, enough of my exclamation marks :)

So I've started packing this dump up. I have started decorating in my mind, which has gotten me nowhere...help. I bought some yummy candles yesterday as a housewarming present to myself :) I went to Target today and TC was a screaming monster. But before I had to carry him out like a squirming 20lb football, I managed to get AM a nightstand and lamp to go with her bedroom stuff. I decided in the playroom I need to put up something to display her preschool artwork. I am not very creative...I like those pin/ribbon boards better than just a cork board, but they are also more expensive. Any suggestions?
Well hopefully next time I get on here I'll be all moved in! ETA to BL: 9am Sat!

stress crying

Just as I'm about to get on here and talk about how stressful my day has been and how at any moment I am going to start crying, AM runs over with a wipey I had given her, it's super dirty, I say throw it away, her:No (which has been her allllll day), I turn around and she was wiping the desk (which we use as a tv stand right now in this sh*#hole apt) and I'm like No, stop, then in the process of her throwing the wipey, running away, her cup on the table spills lemonade all over the floor. I just cry, I can't stand my day anymore. All morning the kids cried, screamed, did everything I said not to. I spent 40 minutes on the phone with Comcast which is annoying in itself. Costco was TC screaming because he was hungry and tired. I hadn't showered yet at that point so it was worse that I was sweating in my sweatshirt b/c the cold morning turned into a warm afternoon. I have done 500 loads of laundry the past few days b/c I was sick, AM was stuffed up, and C was sick last night, I keep disinfecting everything. I can't stand dog crap. I have never wanted to move into my house more than I have today. I want space, I want the dogs out of my face, I want the toys out of the middle of our only room to walk through, I want a kitchen that doesn't disgust me. I want to cry more. If only moving would make my 3 year old listen to me. I swear I don't know what to do with her....is there a boarding preschool out there? Ha! You know I'm just kidding...kind of.

When I went to get on here this morning I had so much to say, so many thoughts running through my head...then I got distracted (kids), did a bunch of stuff (kids, laundry, phone calls, lunch)...and now I don't remember what I wanted to talk about.
I was super sick yesterday- the flu, but luckily only about a 24 hour bug. I puked my brains out Mon night and spent yesterday in agonizing aches and pains and a fever. Today is 100 times better! Okay 98 maybe, I haven't really eaten, nothing sounds good, and I just had to chew some gum to make this taste get out of my mouth...weird.
I am hoping the kids do not get what I had. AM has been stuffed up for a couple days and she did stay home from preschool yesterday, and I'm contemplating ballet tonight..she seems good now, but this morning she wasn't great. Maybe I'll keep her home so she rests and is better for school tomorrow? I don't know..so indecisive!

One week from tomorrow we close on our house! We get to move in on the 3rd and I really cannot even believe it. I was sitting here this morning wondering what life will be like, how we keep saying we'll get back to some normalcy, and I was scared because I don't remember what that is even?! C said it will be like Christmas with all our stuff since we don't even remember what we had...clothes, shoes, ahh my purses!!! Me, I am proud of myself I have carried the same purse all summer...it's amazing...someone who changed her purse with every outfit. Luckily I had a great purse for the summer!
All my kitchen stuff, and I will be able to cook again. This apt kitchen is horrible! I am heartbroken when I think of my kids and all they've given up for the past 2 months-and I am so happy to give them their beautiful home and their bedrooms and even their BEDS! It's going to be amazing!
On top of all that, we went to the house on Monday, they put sod in the whole backyard and fenced it too! We didn't know this was going to happen so it was a big bonus for us!
The house is gorgeous and almost ready for us! Here we come moving truck!
This weekend we're headed off to Yak to visit some friends, super excited for some fun times.
And since I disinfected the bathroom and rewashed all the sheets, hopefully the sickness will be gone and not have a return visit!

so ready to get out of puyallup!

No offense to those who live in or may love Puyallup...but I am so done with this town! I will enjoy living near by so I can go to the 'mall'(or I might just go to SC) and being close to the fair was fun, there are a few restaurants that are here that won't be in Bonney Lake- but for the most part I cannot stand our apartment. I cannot stand the traffic. I am so excited to move into our new house. The apt is getting to be almost unbearable! Why do people not pick up their dog crap? I mean seriously there are a million dogs at this complex and they have nicely supplied garbage containers and even rolls of dog poo bags all over, plenty of green grass areas for them and people literally let their dog crap next to the bag holder and garbage can and they don't have the decency to pick it up? It's disgusting! I guess that just says what kind of people live there...lazy, trashy people. I hate dog poo, more than anyone! I had only scooped dog poo like 2 times before this summer. And trust me-it's going back to our yard/C's job as soon as we move! Ha-sorry honey.

I hate stressing about money, hate it. Yet I go through these phases where I do. Now is one of those times. I seriously have like anxiety issues. I just have to calm down and believe everything will be okay. I know it will...it has to be. Ahhh deep breaths.

We are at the mall right now (south hill) and the kids are playing on the toys. I use the term vaguely-it's no Bell Sq or anything. But then again the kids are having fun, they don't know that people in Bell have nicer toys because the median income there is like 5 times higher or whatever. Haha! Anyway, it's still fun for them and that's what counts!

We took the kids to the fair yesterday. It was really fun. AM got to go on a bunch of rides in the little kid area. Poor TC couldn't even go on the merry-go-round with me holding him b/c he's not 2. That kind of sucked. But I figure next year they both can go on rides together and we'll be close by. We took a bus from the mall, it was way better than driving! And they have one from BL too, so we'll be able to do that again next year.
Oh and most importantly! Can't believe I didn't talk about this first! AM loves preschool! She had 2 days this week- she did great! She also had her first ballet/tumbling class which was so cute and she loved it! Can't wait til next week! It's fun to start something new and I know this sounds annoying but seriously it will be even better when we live in our house and I am so much closer for driving and we have a normal household life again. Ahh I cannot wait. Anyway, AM painted her 1st picture at school on Thurs but it was drying so we get to take it home next week...I can't wait to see it! How cute!

Okay, we need to go to the grocery store now...have a good weekend!

thoughts

I have had so many thoughts in the past few days and thought I need to blog.
-I have been checking facebook but having nothing to say myself, I don't update anything.
-I think my daughter is gorgeous, smart, sweet, funny and then she becomes Chucky and she's C's kid.
-My son is absolutely my baby boy and I love it.
-He's also a cry baby which we need to stop!
-Preschool starts tomorrow and I'm nervous and excited.
-I'm sick of reading the same books over and over and over
-I cannot wait to move into our house more than anything
-I am scared to have to budget so much and live very safe with a bigger house payment but am so excited to be in that house I think I'll do anything.
-I made a half a pot of coffee this morning for myself, which I Never do...figures that says something about how I think this morning/day will go.
-If C and I agree on furniture, we have to get it b/c it's pretty rare!
-I am very excited to take the kids to the Fair next weekend. Growing up I always went, but C grew up way north and only has been to the fair once when we were first dating- I'm happy to make it a new family tradition that my kids remember when they grow up :)
-I can't wait to start having homemade cooking all the time in my new big kitchen. And to start working out again! To be healthier again!
-I love that AM likes to sing along with songs.
-My dogs drive me crazy.

I guess that's it for now. If I think of more that have been running through my head I'll be back!

fun day, exhausting life :)

I had it planned to go to the zoo today, then C tells me yesterday he has to work tonight and Fri night instead of days- and he keeps swearing this night job is ALMOST done! After much nonchalant noncaring on my part, he decided on his on accord to join us. I will tell you AM has been asking if Daddy is going to the zoo with us everytime we've gone for like the past year and a half, or whenever she could talk. So he joins us and we had lots of fun together, I was so happy for AM.
Yesterday my mom came down and we showed her the new house, which they had a ton of stuff done, and it was gorgeous! Love it! It will be done sooo soon, and I swear I will not even know what to do with that huge house?!?! Ahhh love it.
If anyone who reads this has advice on the potty for little ones- please comment. AM has been going to the bathroom on the toilet for months and months. She had some accidents on vacation in Aug where I chalked it up to having too much fun with her cousins to stop playing. Then she's been good-even not having accidents in pullups over night. It seemed if she had to go at all, she woke me up and went on the toilet. In the past week she has had a ton of accidents, daytime, nightime pullup pees and also including 2 poos!? What? That has Never happened. So what is it? Is it because we used to always help her everytime and lately we have told her she's got to practice all by herself b/c that's what they have to do at preschool- all by herself. Is she nervous? Is she feeling pressured? I've tried to be more patient but also let her know it's disappointing and we need to really focus on going on the potty and all the time. Preschool is only 2 1/2hrs, so in all reality she shouldn't have to go much if she goes before she leaves. However, she goes thru phases of going like 10 times in an hour. Usually not in the morning, so hopefully we're good for preschool. I think it's more afternoon and evening after she's had lots of water throughout the day. We'll see...I'm just nervous. So she probably is too...

pms

Seriously I just figured out what is wrong with me. I don't know why it took this long in the day to realize, but I looked at the date, I have been hungry all day, and now I'm super tired. I had a productive morning but then I didn't feel like doing anything else. I had luckily cleaned the house, showered and grocery shopped early. I spent the rest of the afternoon wanting to nap and wishing fall was officially here and I was in my new house cozy with the kids. I'm so tired right now! That treat receipt is sounding pretty good right-a caffeine boost would be nice for at least a half hour pick me up! Okay, off to clean up after my messy rugrats. Their room looks like a tornado hit it....

our long weekend

Friday we visited JK and her new baby girl, and her older baby girl. The kids had fun playing and I got to visit and hold a new baby :) And no, I do not want another one, which totally confirmed that I am happy we made the choice to only have 2! C said I would have to have one with my 2nd husband if I wanted more- ha! He said maybe I didn't have the itch because TC is still a baby but AM was way younger when I got the itch for him so I don't think that's it! Then I realized TC seems like so much more of a baby than AM did, even though looking back at pics it's crazy to think she was just about 19-20 months when she went in her toddler bed and she was so little still! Maybe she just follows the fact girls are more mature :)
Sat we ran some errands and spent the evening watching football. Sun we drove north to Sultan to see my brother and sister in law's new house. It's really cute and I am sooo happy for them! I cannot wait to see it after Alicia gets it all warm and cozy like she does-it will be so nice and homey.
Then on our way home we stopped at our new house b/c we realized we had never even been in the house together and the kids hadn't ever been in it! We bought a house 'separately' but luckily it was the same house :) And it was even more beautiful than I remembered! So nice and I cannot wait to get out of this nasty apt and move into our gorgeous house! We figured out some of the things we're going to have where and picked the kids rooms. We are sooo excited!
Yesterday we ran some errands in the morning and then hung out at home all day. This week will be short which I feel like I'm running out of time to do things! AM starts school and dance next week! I'm really nervous for her to start school now! Crazy. So this week, well today we have to go grocery shopping and maybe costco. Tomorrow I'm still figuring out. Thurs I decided I'm taking the kids to the zoo since it's not supposed to rain and won't be super packed b/c most kids are in school but it will be a nice treat for AM before she starts. And Fri is her school open house and then we head up to gma's to visit and I use her kitchen to make cupcakes for C's mom's remembrance bday dinner at his brother's. I'm making her favorite-blackbottom cupcakes. Sat we have the dinner and Sun was something but I don't remember what! Busy week. Time to shower, get the kids dressed and off to the store...lucky for me they have a starbucks so I can treat myself to a pumpkin spice latte! Talk soon-

new house!

http://m.johnlscott.com/propertydetail.aspx?GroupID=205174766&ListingID=300219547&Sort=129

home

Bonney Lake will still be our new town! I guess I assumed people wouldn't think we'd pick another area. Maybe because we have no real ties to BL and we could technically move anywhere we wanted. However, even the smallest tie, or even thoughts I guess made us not even think of looking elsewhere. AM is already registered and ready to start preschool down here, we are living in Puyallup just so we're close and ready! And she's signed up to start ballet and tumbling the same week as preschool. We've already had it in our heads that this is where we'll live. It didn't really occur to us to change that. Others see it differently though, even my brother and sis-in-law, and my cousin said oh maybe you could look further north. I said nope-BL it is, AM is ready for everything there. So after we made our offer, I did look online back up in Snohomish for houses like ours, but I couldn't find anything close to as nice for even 100 thousand more!!! Can you believe that? It just confirmed our choice to live down here. So yes, we're staying in Bonney Lake, it will be our home and we're excited to be part of the new area. Not to mention the new house is really close to Lake Tapps- so nice! Fun for next summer!

New House?!

We have officially rescinded our offer on the house. How crazy is that. Hopefully they will just sign it and send us our earnest money back. They tried to say the cabinets they put in were more expensive, higher end. Well, even though I'm sure they're full of crap-regardless, if the cabinets did cost more they are still ugly and not what we thought we were getting. They did offer to change the trim. I was more willing to live with the trim than the cabinets. And they admitted we were supposed to get darker cabinets and these aren't but no excuse or reason as to why. So we are done with those people. I am actually relieved. It would be more nerve racking if we had no other option and thought we may be living in this apt forever! But we made an offer on a house we both really love. And after looking at a few more, we realize this may have been meant to be. This new house is laid out more how we want, it's gorgeous, C and I both really really love it, the yard is bigger, flatter, and a Huge thing I was giving up on the other house that I really wanted (especially if buying new) the laundry room is upstairs. So, we have been countered on our offer, but we accepted their counter- should be officially good to go later today. And closing should be I think around the 1st of Oct. I'm excited but in shock! And even though these people seem normal (well the builder) I am still nervous since the last time it was a fiasco. Keep your fingers crossed it all works out!

oh the frustrations

So we had AM's preschool church service, bouncy house, picnic yesterday morning- which was very nice. The people were nice- we enjoyed it. Since we were right by our new house we wanted to drive by so we could peek in and see how far they'd come. I peek in 1st while C waits in the car w/the kids. It looks painted inside, doors on, go around see the trim...hmm looks different. See the cabinets are in the kitchen (mind you this is where all the delays supposedly came from)...hmm not good. I go to the car-C, hmmm, maybe it's just me, but the cabinets, hmm- well you look at them. He comes back, uh yeah- trim is wrong, and the cabinets look like 1980 ugly oak cabinets, oh like the ones in our ghetto apt we're in. Really??? We bought this house because the finishes were nice! We got a spec sheet telling us what would go in. We were told it would look like the other houses we had gone in that were finished. Obviously since the builder is going out of business or whatever- they don't care and are trying to save a buck. Well they either cost themselves more or they lost us- we're not buying a big gorgeous house with crappy finishes inside! And after all we've been through waiting for this house. So frustrating, disheartening, and really really stressful. C is going to go there today to see if he can walk through and see everything. We are also going to look at a few houses today-we need some backups. Wish us luck!

I must say thank you!

I want to say thank you to MB for totally listening :) even though it may seem as I complain on here (which I have the tendency of doing a lot lately) it is because I need to vent! I can only vent to my mother for so long, and she has a lot to complain about with my dad so my ears are open for her too :) Anyway, this is just a nice way for me to talk about my frustrations! So MB- I am definitely going to check out MOPS (I have thought about looking into it for a long time) as soon as we move into our house. I swear there are so many things I can't wait to get settled into when we finally move- it will be like finally starting our life! This building delay has caused more headaches than I ever would have thought! Down to finding new drs, a new dentist, all that fun stuff! Living in Puyallup has gotten us close enough to at least get AM started in her activities for the school year-she starts preschool and ballet/tumbling both in mid-Sept. We have our first preschool blastoff this Sun-church and then picnic, bouncy-house, fun times. So at least we'll start to meet some people near our new community. Even though I'll be driving 25 min to get to all these things until we move- when it will then be like 7 minutes if that! I am very excited to get moved in and settled. Living in this apt is fine but it's crap. The kids seem to be doing great but I think that's honestly because the one constant thing they have is me! Not to sound all self centered or anything :) Haha, being a mom, self centered is the farthest thing from the truth, or reality, but I swear staying home with my kids may drive me crazy somedays but I can't imagine having them be anywhere else, or me being anywhere else. And I do thank my husband for working so hard that we can do this.
I promise I will try to blog more about happy things rather than just to complain! I gotta tell myself things could be worse- which a lot of people keep telling me lately...
This comes up because we finally got an offer on our rental- we will be lucky if we don't have to bring money to closing. I swear we are starting all over again, real estate was once a "oh you can't go wrong investing in real estate" to a piece of crap market. All the money we made when we sold our 1st house is gone, dumped into our house we just sold (with a very small amt of $ in our pockets-and will be going into new house) and this rental which will leave us behind in all reality. But as everyone says, it could be worse, we could have been like a huge part of the country and lost our homes, gone into foreclosure or worse. We have't, we will be better off in some ways- less in debt for not having 1 1/2 houses, we will have a smaller mortgage on our new house, and we will be living in a gorgeous huge new house and starting life in a new community with our beautiful children. Weird, maybe the rain has washed away all my complaints...haha, I won't be so certain about that, C hasn't woken up yet and I'm sure he'll be in a bad mood...could probably put $ on it- and that may put a damper on my happy thoughts. Alright I'm signing off before I talk myself into being irritated :) thanks for listening ya'll-til next time!
Something random- thank goodness for crayola color wonder markers, my kids color on everything and these don't work on anything but their own paper (which they use much less than other surfaces)- so AM was just coloring on my sweatshirt and I said A-stop coloring on me, she goes "I'm not coloring, you have a stain". Obviously mommy likes to use the tide stick :) HA!

jeez

Okay so I swear these past two days have been weird. In my head, emotions, you'd swear I was prego and hormonal- which I am NOT! C has driven me crazy- I have seen his whiny 5 yr old come out (who is more annoying than an actual whiny 5 yo b/c he is a grown man & I can't picture some of the other men I know actually acting like that). I have had too many things come back into my mind- maybe I shouldn't check facebook anymore. Exes- cute, happy, newly married (and I do mean exes- as in plural). Too many to pop in my head in one weekend. Very good thing I'm not also reading Twilight right now! I put that on hiatis (sp?) For now since I get so obsessed. Another thing that has been in my head-a lost friend, and I get irritated that she cares less for me than another friend who actually dumped her. Fine- I keep telling myself screw it, but obviously since it bothers me, there's a reason. Whatever-maybe it's she was willing to throw us away and willing to try and fight for the other. Guess life just goes on. Friendship seems to be something that is not very prevalent (sp?) in my life. Guess you could argue it's my fault. Guess you could argue it's the lifestyle-mom all the time-I live. Guess you could say it's just how things end up. Who knows, but I miss my girls. Mostly PB, KA, TS, and yeah- pretty much the 3 of you make me smile, laugh, enjoy life, and I wish we could get together for a very fun time! So that's what I wish- I need some girlfriend time. Call me up.
Oh, and happy anniversary T! Wish u many more yrs of happiness!

single mom

Seriously, I feel like one. Between C working nights again the past few weeks and us only having him around a few hours from the time he wakes up until he leaves- then he worked yesterday day and went to sleep early on the couch- after I cooked, cleaned up, gave the kids a bath, pjs, and put them to bed. He then got up today and left by 6:15 and I get a call saying he also has to go to the night job again tonight b/c the fire alarm guy will be there. So the $ will be good, overtime is nice. Watching the kids all day everyday and night is not so much fun. I get exhausted. The up side to it- I don't have to watch sports tonight :) haha
However there are a million things I'd love to get done or do w/o the kids- but that will never happen. I have to face the fact that that's not my life, I don't often get a break. And now that we live far from my parents there is not even a chance to drop them off for an hour to do something real quick by myself. Oh well...maybe when we move into our new house we'll eventually find someone who likes to babysit once in awhile.
I seriously miss my kids lots when I am away from them, but jeez, breaks are nice. A good thing about summer coming to an end is they are already starting to go to bed earlier since it's not light til 10pm! So I can get a quick break in before I go to sleep myself. Last night though-ugh, they both woke up, it was a long night of little sleep!
Alright back to the kiddies!

Partay

So the big day is done once again! I am the last one standing :) haha TC did not nap- super tired little boy went to bed at 7:15. We are staying at gma's again tonite, but w/C too (doesn't have to work). C went to sleep on couch after lots of leftovers and beers. I then got AM to go to sleep in my parents bed (so we wouldn't wake up the babe), and now I am sitting on the couch with my pink plastic cup of wine happy that the party was so good, but kind of sad for myself since I have nobody to hang out with! My parents left at 6:30 and still aren't back- at 9:30- so I'm all alone! Well with the passed out husband, kids, and dogs. I am very happy the sun came out, very happy C's fam came, very happy my oldest bro called in sick so he could be here today! But sad that None of my fam came, but very happy that C's fam is mine and they were all almost here. Very happy all the kids had fun. Very happy my little girl had a great bday party. And happy that Jenny (and Maddi), Portia and Kyle were my friends that made it and I am so thankful to them for being such great friends. Not that others don't know, but it came up today about not having much of a social life...those w/kids may know this. Anyway, having your kids party is an excuse to have A party. So I thank those that care enough to come b/c it really means a lot to show up and let me have a little fun too! So thanks for the fun day and thanks to everyone for making my princess's ballerina birthday the best ever!

vacation and another love story

So I was just going to get on here and talk about our great family reunion/annual trip with C's fam. To check out my drunk fun night with all the cousins- I think you can see the pics our cousin posted/tagged me on my facebook. Hiillaarrrious! It was a night to remember....or forget :) haha
Anyway- I got the kids to bed and sat to flip through some channels, nothin on, and then...the Notebook. What a love story! I should stop watching but I already missed the heartbreak and wonderful rain kiss, and I don't think I'll be able to stay up for the repeat on next to see those parts again- so I should be able to watch without going crazy. And just enjoy my time watching Ryan Goesling be hot ;)
So my little man is walking all over the place and his shoes were too small so he spent half our vacation shoeless! So today we took him and bought some real little tennis shoes and some adorable brown shoes so he's ready to go! He also got his first haircut over vacation and looks like an adorable little boy (and I spike it so it's absolutely the cutest thing you've ever seen).
AM on vacation was so cute and fun- she had a blast with all her cousins. She loved going on the boat and yelling faster! She even learned thumbs up to tell Uncle Brad to make the boat go even faster. But even crazier-my little daredevil went tubing...3 times! Once real slow by herself, second time with her older cousin, and third time with her daddy and they went fast! I think I stopped breathing I was so nervous!
Anyway she's a crazy girl and I swear she has no fear! I love her to pieces! And I'm super excited and nervous for her to start preschool...I cannot believe my baby girl will be 3 next week. Time sure flies!
Okay enough babbling- time to watch the end of the lovestory!

not so bad I promise

After I got MBs comment this am, I reread what I blogged last night- it's not as bad as it sounds. I really think the opposite of what it sounded like- in terms of the apt. It's not so bad, and it has helped C and I- jeez we fought constantly living at my brother's, but we haven't really fought at all here. Of course I feel like we fight when he is in a bad mood & it rubs off on me and it's a huge cycle. He then says I blame him& it's all his fault. I guess I wouldn't say that except it seems to be true. Anyway, off on a tangent there :) who can really analyze spousal arguments!? Anyway, the apt is not so bad. It's a little WT, but I usually just end up walking the dogs in our pjs so we fit right in :) haha
As for Edward- I do know he's a fantasy. Truly a fantasy. And honestly- funny story here- there was this one couple I knew once who I envied- it was when C and I hit our rough patch at 1 yr- they had 2 kids, but they found babysitters to go out, they seemed madly in love, couldn't wait to get home (know what I mean)- and then I heard a couple yrs ago- they got a divorce b/c he said he'd been bi and she left him and he went to do his thing!?!? Who would have ever thought? Insane! So I realized then that things aren't always as they seem. However I do feel like there are people out there w/their "soulmates", but I am just a hopeless romantic. And as I've said before- movies and books make me crazy. Probably because they bring my hopeless romantic side to the top and I get loopy. Anyway, I'm not depressed and I don't feel all sorry for myself, I'm not going to get a divorce, I love my kids more than anything (even when AM is a bully to her brother:) and I am definitely excited to move to our new house and get some normalness back into our lives. But I will still watch and read twilight because dreaming never hurt anyone...well maybe in my case it does! Haha

random thoughts

Ugh. I feel huge. I need to start working out again. I live in a WT apartment. I just saw a girl walking with her son who was wearing a dirty tshirt, socks (walking on the sidewalk and thru the parking lot in just socks), and a diaper that was so full it was hanging almost to his knees. I really wanted to offer a clean diaper. It was sad-poor baby. My daughter is a big bully to her brother...she takes everything away from him and is mean to him about everything else. (She can be sweet about 15% of the time). I really want to go on vacation but I hate that I'll be all fat-but can't lose 50 pounds in 2 days so nothing I can do about that. I am sick of Madagascar. I am getting obsessed with Twilight again- not to the extent of last go round (yet), but after reading the series and then watching the movie 3 times, I started the 1st one over again. It took me a little bit to get into it again, but not too much...I am once again in love with Edward. Once again dreaming of the perfect love, the perfect soulmate. Ahh, to dream. Not to say that just moving to this apt has not totally helped my marriage already, because it has, but still (even though I love my husband) he's no Edward. I always laugh when I have thought this before-and actually have quoted this because it's so true- but who would ever think I'd quote Miley Cyrus! But I read once she didn't have the whole Rob Pattison obsession like every other girl in America, because they needed to realize they weren't in love with Rob, they were in love with Edward. And then I also point out- it could easily be Rob...he's tall, hot, and he has a British accent...that says it all. So screw you Miley! Haha.Anyway, enough of my fantasies! We are headed up to Seattle for the first time since living down here tomorrow. Visiting grandmama, going to trader joes, my brother's, and then to my parents for dinner. I'll have to pack up the kids, including pjs because it will probably be somewhat late. I'll have to plan on leaving around bedtime or something so they don't sleep on the way home & then not again when we get home. Ah-such planning for something so simple! That's what you get when you move far away!
Alright, enough craziness- time for wine and kids bedtime soon! Night.

Puyallup

Okay so here we are! Night 3 in our apt in Puyallup! It's crazy...if you would have asked me where I'd be right now-it would have never been here! But it's nice enough, amazing that when something is temporary it's okay, but I would never be able to live like this forever! 2 kids, 2 dogs & us in a 2 bdrm apt. Up sides to it- we have our own space and a washer/dryer that works. Also a pool that we've been to once which is fun to take the kids to, but in all reality is not relaxing when you have 2 little ones that can't swim by themselves. I wish I could go lay by the pool w/ a book or magazine and get a tan, but hey life isn't like that. Anyway, we did get a dvd player (luckily we had our smaller tv w/us at my brother's) today since cable isn't being hooked up til thurs & c has to work nights all week- we got a couple dvds for $3.99 at best buy. Have a feeling I'll come to like madagascar and over the hedge :) So life isn't so bad, the kids seem happy and adjust so well to our crazy lives over the past couple months! You just gotta love them for understanding life is ok as long as we're all together. But jeez, when we move into our house- it's going to be like living in a mansion! I don't think any of us will know what to do with ourselves! Luckily fri we go on our annual vaca with C's fam and I am so looking forward to that, it's the most fun! And it will be 4 nights of yummy food, drinking, laughing, and family! What more could you ask for? I'm so excited. And even more excited that we're switching back to Penticton next year so it will be a week of even more fun. And the kids will be older which is even better for up there. Anyway, life is just peachy and things can only get better huh? Oh- don't know if I ever mentioned Raven...2 surgeries. Anyway- 2nd one sooo much better. Realllllly irritated they didn't do that the 1st time and save us half the money. Seriously I think they just wanted twice the $ jack offs. But we're happy she's better! Nothing we can do now. Guess that's it for now, I'll be back soon-with more exciting tales of apartment life in puyallup!

oh what a week

So Friday I find out our house is probably not going to be ready until mid-October. Crap. We've been living in my brother's basement for a month and a half, still thought we had a month left, with this news we know we have to do something. We think about looking for a new house, we write a mean email, we go to Vegas. We get home, my mom told my brother not knowing we hadn't yet b/c we didn't know what we were doing yet, he doesn't seem excited with the news, he has no idea, I tell him we don't know what's going on yet. We decide to keep the house, send the email, and start an apt hunt. In the meantime, when we're in Vegas, my sisinlaw calls me frantic-she's 100x more in love with dogs than anyone else I know. Raven has a huge gash in her shoulder, no clue how it happened, vet bill $350. Speed to yesterday, another vet visit $75, speed to tomorrow- a 2nd surgery $500. A very depressed Lori returns things from the Nordstrom sale, including my new MJ purse...so sad. We put a pet deposit down on an apt in Puyallup, we are moving to a 2 bdrm apt on Sat! We will be paying rent, but will have space. We will have a bigger credit card balance, and a sewn up dog...again. Hope next week is better.

5 years of wedded bliss

I shouldn't laugh but anyone who has been married 5 yrs may agree with me that it's not all wedded bliss :) However, today is C and my 5 year anniversary. Crazy to think of the ups and downs, crazy to think we made it this long, cray to look at my two little angels (one of whom is screaming at me right now) and think it's only been 5 years and we are this much further. My dad told me there's a 7 year itch, a 14 year itch, and probably a 21 year itch, but he wasn't sure if you both hit them at the same time. Haha! Isn't that always the case? I found it amusing. Not to mention I feel like C and I were in a really good place before we moved out of our house and into my brother's basement...which has since put a huge burden on our shoulders, not to mention our marriage. However, we wait, impatiently, to move into our new big house, and I have faith we'll all be back to better than normal once again. So we are dropping the kids off at my parents so we can enjoy a nice dinner out tonight and my brother and Jenn are keeping the kids Sat/Sun so we can do 24hrs in Las Vegas. At least we have some fun in our near future! Happy Anniversary!

negligent still

I thought I had blogged since May- oh jeez! Well we're living with my brother, sis-in-law, and their 2 dogs...us, our 2 kids, and our 2 dogs. What a zoo! I have had a blast living w/Jenn-we have lots of fun and it's nice to have a somewhat daily conversation with a woman my age! Not just kids and dogs! Life of course has been crazy, we are living in a "studio" apt down here in the basement, which needless to say has not left C and I always on the greatest terms...I swear somedays I wonder where the divorce papers are! My kids are still adorable but I wonder sometimes how I survive the days...or nights. Wine may be the answer :) haha! Other than all that- I have become obsessed with Twilight. I want to fall in love with a vampire- which has also made me obsessively wonder about soulmates and if life is where it's meant to be. Of course then I remember how crazy love stories make me! Our house is supposed to be ready Aug 31st- I am hoping it is because some sort of normal life will be good again, although I know the kids and I will really miss Auntie Jenn! But AM starts preschool down in BL sept 15th, so that's really exciting! I also need to get some furniture for our big Empty house! Hopefully I can blog more now that I'm not reading every second I can about Edward :) ahhh, sweet dreams!

better

Okay so I'm feeling better for the time being. I got my stint out-for those who don't know what that is- gross. It's a flexible curlycue thing that goes from your kidney and through the tube to your bladder. Sooo uncomfortable-painful-annoying. So I got the one out..I will not go into details about them taking it out. Yuck. I will be going in for another kidney stone laser zapping (not proper medical terms) on Thurs. And unfortunately another stint-which I will in turn have to go back in for removal. Mind you, removal is just in the office while you are awake, laying there. Very unlike when you are under antisthesia to get it in-and laser zapping. Anyway, the nice weather for a couple days has made me happier. I even enjoyed the thunder storm we just had.
I have however had crazy dreams which turn to thoughts all day of the past. Do you ever think of exes or past crushes, flames from high school or college? Wow, my dreams have been crazy. I of course do not divulge this info to my husband-don't think he'd enjoy or be interested. Anyway, it's just kind of crazy. Then today C and I take the kids to the beach by his grandparents, which they have always called 'The Cove', and we've been together for over 8 yrs, and for some reason I have never gone to this specific area. Today I wander from the regular spot where you enter and realize it's where I went to a bonfire with my HS bf the night after graduation. It brings back memories. So weird, especially after all these dreams or whatever.
Another thing- I was looking at an old friend's facebook profile and it makes me mad/sad/jealous..not sure. I miss her, I wonder how life just goes on and you are replacable..but I wouldn't trade my kids for anything in the world! And who knows where life will take you, but I am happy with mine. I guess I just wonder how things change so fast. And life takes you in different directions. I suppose you just miss somethings and others miss out on different things.
TC is almost one. I cannot believe it! It's so fun seeing how different he is than AM. He is his own little manperson. So cute, fun, funny and adorable. I love him to death-such a doll!
And AM, even through some of the Terrible twos..and I mean terrible! She can still have her moments of being the sweetest little girl you've ever met. Gosh I just want to eat her up somedays. Soooo cute! So, anyway, I can now blog from my blackberry (which I love btw), hopefully I won't be so negligent now! If I am, remind me I can do it instead of watching Kipper..oh wait, I like Kipper :)

Discouraged

I feel discouraged. I am tired, exhausted. The weather I'm sure has a lot to do with it. I only want to put sweats on. The kids wear me out. I feel like I need a nap. It makes for long days and nights when C is working from 1 or 2pm until 2am. I wonder if my kidneys pick up on this and decide to tear me down more. I spent a few days in the hospital a week ago. I am going back in next week for more kidney procedure crap. I don't have time to work out, we eat crap for food all the time because C is hardly ever here and we have to keep our house somewhat clean because it's on the market- which brings me to more discouragement- it hasn't sold yet. That stresses C out and then I get stressed, we wonder what's wrong as all we've gotten are great comments by all the agents and people through. Oh well....life goes on. I just wish I could have a vacation along the way.

missing post!

So I blogged very intoxicated from Autumn's phone in Yakima....blogging on a blackberry when you can hardly see in a dark garage...not smart. Not saving the post...could be smart! haha No, I know it was just all sappy 'I love my girlfriends' stuff. But we did have a good time. However, I realized it was like open to close, 10 years later. Which in turn gives you an idea of why I spent the later part of the night puking in my hotel sink (for those of you who know about C's history with this..it was finally payback for my husband- he really loved that). And again, pulling over 5 miles from Kelly's house on the freeway for another round of that on our way back to Seattle in the morning. I finally felt like half a human being around 1:30 yesterday. So, obviously good times were had by all! Thank you to Kelly and Trav for a wonderful time! And to all my girlfriends for all the sappy I love you talk, there's nothing like it! XOXO

Funny

So, I didn't get on here tonight to blog. I thought about it and decided I would rather go to bed. However there was nothing on tv when I turned it off upstairs and thought I would check some things out online before I turned the computer off. As I read T's blog and caught up with Mandy's, for some reason whenever I read hers I feel motivated to talk for at least a minute :) So, thanks Mandy for motivating this unmotivated blogger.

I don't know what it is lately, I just don't feel I have much to talk about or I just don't use the time I have to get on here. But sometimes it's good for me, lets me talk or vent to nobody in particular!

Our house is officially going on the market on Wednesday! C is nervous. I told him I will only be nervous if it sells and we haven't found a place yet :) We have found one, but I won't get into details because it's kind of a wait and see thing right now. I'll let you know if this changes!

We are all finally getting over all the sicknesses. Last time I wrote I said we had been through 3 weeks of sickness, and we were getting another go around. Well, I got over that one fairly quickly. Unfortunately, then TC got a stomach bug...puking, and the other end too...and then I got a sinus infection and bronchitis....Now, once again I can say it is gone...kind of. The dr wouldn't give me any medicine, so it has been nights of a horrible stuffy nose and mornings of yucky coughing. I have finally stopped taking my aleve cold and sinus now and no more afrin. Thank goodness, I hate that stuff! Let's keep our fingers crossed it is all gone for good now!

The weather is throwing me for a loop. It was sooo cold last week, snow, pouring rain, I was ready to pack up and move. Now it's like 70...WEIRD. But I have seen a glimpse of my daughter's future...we have to be outside at all times. It has been 2 days of fits to enter the house. Which is great for her to want to be outside, but I can't just leave a 2 yr old outside by herself all day! So this evening, the kids were playing with toys in the yard and mommy sat outside with a glass of wine and the paper...it was nice. Then it was World War III to come in and take a shower...that was not nice.

Okay, enough for me today. I am tired. Tomorrow is a big day of cleaning, cleaning, cleaning!

Wish us luck on the house selling and our house hunting!

Unmotivated blogger

So I have been, it's terrible. It started I was blogging in my head, then I forgot that I wasn't actually ever blogging anymore and then I just got unmotivated and I swear half the time I want to blog it's to complain or vent or whatever. Who wants to read that? And when I actually get a chance to get on the computer, I do one or two things I need to before 1-the kids wake up 2-the kids (TC) cry 3-the kids (AM) say mamamamamamamamamamama, turn the puter off. So, here I am, finally. I have been on the computer long enough to do the couple things I needed and AM and TC are fully entertaining (minus a few mamas so far..) themselves with toys and books on the floor next to me. I thought I would blog.

Life has been crazy lately. C has been working nights and we have been trying to adjust to this new schedule. It has AM climbing in bed with us a lot, her light needing to stay on, me needing to stay with her until she falls asleep in her bed. We have been through 3 weeks of sickness, and we are having a flare up of runny noses and unfortunately it has finally caught up with me and I have a very sore throat and a bad headache today. But as far as life goes, we must still clean, do laundry, grocery shop, entertain and wake up when little ones do not want to sleep.

I have been working out on the elliptical still, but my results have decreased. I have lost a total of 9.5 pounds, but that leaves me behind schedule by a half pound I think. I should bust @$$ and stop eating, but once again, I am feeling unmotivated. I have come to the realization that I desperately need a tummy tuck, but $8000 isn't in my budget! It wouldn't cure my problems, but it would help my post (2) pregnancy (csection) stomach, lose however much weight they could take, and make me probably feel 100 times better about myself! I'll have to keep dreaming for now....

There are some days I get mad at my husband, but I am so happy I have him and he is my best friend in the whole world. God I love him. He is the only one that I do not feel judged by nor do I feel that...well I don't know how to put it. I guess he just understands what is important to me, our family, our kids, etc.

We've been trying to get our house all touched up to put on the market soon. It's actually coming along nicely. We have some little things left, but our list is getting items crossed off. We have been looking at houses online and finding a few here and there. We've gone to look at a couple but nothing really meeting our fancy yet. We've looked north, we've looked south. We're keeping open minds about a location.

AM was accepted into Our Lady of Guadalupe preschool for fall, which we are very excited about. We'll have to figure out what to do if we move, maybe I'll make the drive a couple days a week...? It's a great school and we think we'll all like it.

My little man is getting big, 9 months old, almost crawling. I cannot believe before I know it, he will be 1! Time sure flies.

Oh, and San Francisco was so fun for C and I! We had a great trip!

Hope all is well with you- til next time!

too many to remember

I have been blogging in my head. I have lost track of all my thoughts I have wanted to talk about because once I blog in my head, it's gone and nowhere is it typed and I forget. Weird...must be like confession or something :)

We got our elliptical. Love it. Been working out everyday, not super long, but it gets better everyday. I feel better about myself because I haven't done this since back before I was married with children. I am hoping by summer there will be some kind of noticeable difference. I just need to keep at it. I've lost 6 pounds, so it's a start at least.

I am looking forward to a busy month. We have lots of fun things planned and the fact that the sun is out sometimes and the days are brighter longer makes me happy!

As for the picture, it's just been awhile and it shows that my little man is growing up..sitting up in the bathtub, no infant tub, with his big sissy. So cute. I love my two babies!

Ugh and Yeah

UGH
I am going to the dentist today. I have to get another filling. I don't know if you remember my anxiety about all the fillings I had a year and a half ago, but I hate those big needles in my mouth. Crappy.
YEAH
Good news, C and I have planned a whirlwind 24 hr getaway! It started this weekend when I got an email about Alaska Airlines miles reservation sale for trips to some places in Cal by March. So I looked into it and we still have lots of miles and it was very few miles to go down there during this time. We started talking about it a day or so later and we didn't think it'd be fun to take the kids to San Francisco, or really anywhere for that matter because it would be too much energy to get us all down there and then what? And we didn't want to be gone from them for the whole weekend, TC is still kind of little for that and we didn't want to have C take any time off work. So, we decided we are going to leave very early Saturday morning and come back early Sunday morning. Then my mom will only have to stay with them for technically one whole day and then sleep at our house for the night and we'll be back early Sunday. So, off we go! The weekend it worked best for was Feb 28th, so I am really looking forward to that quick escape! C said it will be a nice trip since we didn't get to celebrate my 30th bday last year and it will be just after my 31st. We are excited to shop a little, go out to a nice dinner, stay in a nice hotel, and just a quick 2 hr flight...with no kids! It's a perfect trip :)

Big purchase

So, C and I cancelled our gym memberships awhile ago because we never went, we haven't been going forever and we were still paying. Mind you, they weren't that expensive, but we decided it was one expense that we were just throwing away money. We had talked about getting an exercise machine someday but never really got into a conversation about it. After finally deciding we were using this year to get healthy, we talked about getting an elliptical for our downstairs. We had originally wanted the little area to have a seat and look nice, but in all reality, nobody sees it but us and we should use it for something we would take advantage of instead of another seat to sit our fat butts on. So, after much research online and reading customer reviews, we settled on an elliptical that I think we will be happy with. Free shipping...should be here in a week or so. I am looking forward to this because it means I will get some regular exercise once again. Walks with the kids are nice, but somedays....getting a 2 year old to agree to get bundled up and sit in her stroller doesn't always work out. Somedays she would rather have WWIII with me than be dragged out of the house! And for those days it's super yucky out and it's much easier to get on the elliptical and watch Sesame Street with AM :) it will be better than taking 30 minutes to get us all out of the house! So, step 2 to our healthy 2009 has been fulfilled! More exercise!

And once again, TC slept a wonderful night's sleep :) YEAH!

Okay T, my turn

6 random pictures

Me pre kids at the cougar game in Seattle. Drunk.

C working on our old house when we bought it, but had not moved in yet because he had to get the popcorn ceilings off.

AM when she was a baby

Us 4 girls at Jenny's house in Tacoma, when we had a drunk dinner with our dogs all there...I remember that, didn't we walk down to the store with all the dogs and buy smokes??

My mom and dad opening their early morning Christmas present when we found out we were pregnant with AM, we gave them a santa baby bib.

My brother's kids, my first niece Kasey, Jermey, and Kayley- I think this was at my baby shower for AM.

And just because I feel bad there is no picture of TC, I will find one and it :)

My weekend and week ahead.

First I have to say thank you to Wohn, I love the comment. It is totally you and it brings back memories of you. You are funny :) And I miss you too!

Second of all, my first weigh in, I only lost 1.5 lbs. Which is good, better than I was last week! But I think I did really good all week and then the weekend isn't as good. Obviously I didn't do terrible, and my goal of 20 lbs over 5 months is actually about 1lb per week, so I'm on track, but I must do better this week and weekend! That's the crappy part about weighing in on Monday, the weekend doesn't give you any moving room to weigh in right after! Like it would be if I weighed in on Friday and then had the whole week after the weekend to do better :)

Anyway, my sweet baby boy is back! Friday night was terrible and then Sat and Sun were wonderful! He went to sleep at 7-7:30 and woke up at 6:30! A whole night of sleep....I love it and no screaming baby....even better!

My husband...over the weekend he wasn't sick, but he had something done (I cannot say what b/c if he ever knew I told anybody he would kill me). Anyway, let's just say that having two c-sections and still having to do things and take care of your kids....there is a reason men don't have to go through any of it. They could not handle it and if we had to be around them during that time, we would kill them. Enough said. BIG BABIES.

I am sooo ready for football season to be over. I am over having football on at my house 20 hours a day. And I hate basketball so now I have to have basketball games on, but not as often, only when the huskies play and probably during some playoff crap.

Something came over me this morning and I went on a crazy cleaning spree. It started with the upstairs bathroom. Then I dusted, then I vacuumed, then I mopped. Then I went downstairs and cleaned the bathroom and vacuumed and then I was sweating because I'm trying to keep the baby entertained and AM and then I took a shower because I was hot and sweaty and still in my pajamas. I finished it all by 9. Good to go. Now all I have left is the laundry and the kitchen.

Is it Friday yet?

Do you ever blog in your head?

I find myself sometimes blogging in my head and then when I get on here I think I've blogged a bunch and said a lot of things in the past week or so, but it's because I blog in my head and then I never get a chance to actually sit down and type. Too busy. I swear, I do have a little downtime here and there (not much), but once in awhile I get them to nap at the same time in the afternoon and I might get 30 minutes to myself. Usually by that point I am so tired, I just sit down and watch tv for 20 minutes (after I do something I need to...like empty the dishwasher or throw some laundry in)...sometimes I check my email, but by the time I am finished and go to blog, the baby cries and I have to go get him.
Anyway, speaking of my son....he is crazy. He does not like to sleep! Well I think he would if he wasn't such a fussy pants. He was for a few nights there sleeping from 7-7...oh glorious day! I thought the end was near, the end of getting up every few hours, the end of getting up at 5 am. And then...this is worse. C and I figure it's a mixture of teething and separation anxiety. He goes to sleep early because he doesn't nap very long at all during the day, he then wakes up and will not let me put him down. I do, and screams. Not just cries, he screams blood curdling someone is killing me screams. I let him cry to wear himself out, he doesn't stop, he may slow down but the second he starts to sound like he's going to sleep, he screams again! So I rock him, he's perfectly fine when I'm holding him. I put him down once he falls asleep, he wakes up again. This continued last night for 2 hours. Then he slept through the night, from 11:30 to about 5:45 this morning. I guess it's disheartening because AM was SUCH a good sleeper, still is. She was on clockwork by 7 months, up at 6, nap at 10:30, nap at 2:30, down at 7. TC is not following in these footsteps. AM still gets up between 6 and 7, nap at 1, down at 8 (we moved from 8pm-6am for winter..summer is more like 9pm-7am). Anyway, all I can do is hope that this will end soon. I get grumpy when I'm tired at night. I know it will end, but I hate to wish away this time in his life because he's so dang cute!
I don't think I blogged at all about our New Year's...good thing. It was crappy and I have nothing good to say about the evening with my husband, except that the dinner I made was good. Happy New Year.
I have started something for myself, it's not really what I get to do (not like I get time for myself or anything..), but something I decided I have to do for myself! I have started eating healthy once again. It was to a point where not that I was eating totally unhealthy because we eat healthy dinners and lots of veggies, but if I wanted to snack I would, if I wanted a piece of candy I would, if I wanted french fries when we went out, I would. No longer. I decided I was going to start this last Monday, I weighed myself, and started eating good. I also decided instead of just eating good, I was going to count WW points and stick to it. It has worked great in the past and if I don't keep track, I will end up eating more than I need to. So, I will weigh myself again on Monday morning and see how I did for the week. I do feel better though, it's amazing how much better you feel when you're not all bloated or feeling yucky from eating something you know you shouldn't. Anyway, I made an initial goal of exercising 3 times a week, whether it be a walk or an exercise video. I have already done 3 good days this week, and it's a good thing b/c my jogging stroller now has a flat tire and C needs to get it fixed for me for next week! I think I'll take our regular double down to the beach today for a walk, it's a flat walk (instead of the super hills by my house) and that stroller will be fine for down there. So, my first goal is to lose 20 lbs in 5 months, by TC's first bday. That is nowhere near a perfect weight, but I will feel better, sooo much better and then I figure it will be summer and I can just continue it and hopefully lose more. The first time I did WW, it was great, I lost 40 lbs, but I also worked out at the gym almost everyday forever. I fell off the gym wagon when I left Nordstrom and went back to a 9-5 after C and I got married. The weight came on. After I had AM, I went back to WW and lost 20 lbs, which was good, it got the baby weight off, but I didn't go any further to get more off. This time, I figure, I don't want to start at the meetings b/c I don't want to spend the money or find the time to get there?! If I can't do it on my own, I will go. However, I am motivated and I hope to continue this outlook of healthy eating and whatever exercise I can get! So...wish me luck! Happy 2009.